Friday, February 27, 2009

Hair Identity Crisis

Okay, so the only person I've ever completely really trust with my hair is Katie Bender (she was my hair dresser in Nashville). If you know me, you know she's the person I allowed to chop off all my hair a few years back. I haven't let anyone touch my hair since we moved from Nashville. I'm dying to change it and do something drastic but I just really don't know if I have the nerve to. I'm really wanting to cut it back off really short and go a little blonder for summer. Why such a big deal, if you know me, you know I've had my hair everything from super long to short to bleach blonde to deep red. I love changing my hair and haven't really to this point been really unhappy with any hair style I've had but I've had this same color and style since we moved to Knoxville. A change is waaaayyy overdue but for some reason am scared to death. So here's what I'm thinking. . . . .

I love love love the style and color here but wow is it completely different from anything I've ever had!!!
Ashley sent me this style and I also love it!!! Maybe a little less daring than the first.

I'll keep you updated if I decide to cut it.

Thursday, February 26, 2009

My Heart Breaks

It's amazing how much blogging opens doors to people who are complete strangers but makes you feel a part of their lives. For anyone who runs across our blog I hope they feel the same way, I hope they feel like we have allowed them to glimpse into our lives and be a part of our happiness, sadness, grief, healing, etc. I ran across a blog this morning, that almost immediately brought me to tears. I could help but think what can I do to help. I wanted to be able to get the word out about this family, their loss and their hopes. The McClenahans, lost their baby girl Cora, who was 11 months, to stage 4 Neuroblastoma. She was diagnosed on January 25 and went to be with Jesus February 8. I can't even begin to imagine the sadness and heartache that they must be feeling. I ask that you all continue to pray for their healing and closure.

I the meantime, as most of you know I LOVE LOVE LOVE, its full of handmade goodies and I am amazed at the things on there. In honor of little Cora Paige, The McClenahans, are building a playground. Tons of etsy vendors have come together to sell items and all the proceeds go to Cora's Playground. There are tons and tons of cute things on their for sell, so if you have a few extra $$, hop on over there and pick up something cute in memory of little Cora. Also if you just want to donate there is a paypal site, Cora Paige. Also, here is a collection of all the things on etsy that will go to Cora's playground. If for whatever reason it doesn't work just go to etsy website and search Cora Paige. Again, please continue to pray for all of Cora's family as they try to cope with this huge loss.

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

The Belchers' Came to Town

This past weekend we had company from Ashley, Tony and baby Reeslyn. It had been a while since we had gotten to spend time with them and I must say it was way over due. It was great to spend time with them and see how much Reeslyn is growing and changing. I had to post of pics of our fun times together. Hope you all enjoy!!

Allie absolutely loved Reeslyn.Reeslyn and Uncle DalynThe Girls (we couldn't resist getting these hats)Family Photo Op (so cute)

Octo-mom Insanity

Okay, I told myself I wasn't going to blog about this woman. But I can't help myself, I just think all of this is completely insane and the more that comes of this the more insane it is. Do media outlets not realize that by focusing so much attention on her, she's getting exactly what she wanted out of having so many children? The other thing that I think people aren't focusing on is the welfare of these 14 children. Yes, this woman is insane and no she doesn't have the capabilities to support 14 children. I've read article after article that blows my mind, last week she was in the midst of being homeless, with 8 babies fighting for life in the hospital, yet she found time to spend money on MAC make-up and have her nails done. HELLO!!!!????!!!! Doesn't that not strike anyone else as a little strange. So after that, I wake up this morning to a new video being released of Nadya and her mom arguing over her having these 8 babies. I couldn't figure out how to post the video so I posted the link if any of you haven't seen it.

The one thing that disturbs me the most about this interview is she tells her mother that, "the only thing you can do is use them or destroy them." If she was correctly informed, which maybe she was but choose to ignore everything but HER wants, she would know that you can also donate these embryos to couples who are unable to conceive. She would also know that there isn't a set time frame that she has to use these embryos in. She makes the statement, "who would do that." Is she really so stupid, people do that (donate embryos) everyday. And if she wasn't willing to consider donating or destroying (which I don't agree with) then she should have never been allowed to have IVF in the first place. My doctor on several occasions has told Dalyn and I that we need to realize that if we proceed with IVF we need to be prepared to make the decision somewhere down the road. Neither one of use are ready to make that decision at this point in our lives, therefore we have not proceeded with IVF.

The other thing that disturbs me a little bit is that here her mom is, letting her live in this house (for free) while she is about to lose it to the bank. Here her mom is, taking care of the other 6 kids at home, while Nadya prances around LA and she has the nerve to treat her mother like she's a worthless human being for questioning her decisions. Her mom seems like she gets the magnitude of what it is going to take to raise all these children and how selfish Nadya was by going back to get another round of IVF.

This video makes my stomach turn. These 14 children, if left in Nadya's hands, are never going to have the true nurturing bond that a child should have with their mother. But on the other hand if put in the foster system they may never have parents. All in all I don't know where I stand as to whether she should be allowed to keep these children but I do know that its a very sad situation for these children. I think people need to stop focusing on Nadya and her self-centered desires and start focusing on how to give these children the best life possible.


Thursday, February 19, 2009

Say a little prayer

Dalyn and I have made the decision to continue with IUI this month. The doctor didn't feel like it would really increase our chances of getting pregnant by a huge amount but we just felt like we really had nothing to lose by doing it. We go at 7:45 in the morning, so say a little prayer tonight and in the morning and anytime in between that this will work for us. We won't really know anything for a couple of weeks, so I probably won't be updating for a while about this. But just keeping praying God will bless our lives with a child.

Monday, February 16, 2009

That Loving Feeling

What a wonderful weekend, well minus my husband being on call and spending tons of time at the hospital, but we still got to spend some excellent quality time together.. I just wanted to give you all a quick recap of some amazing things I received or gave for this love holiday. First off, I want to give major props to my husband whom didn't send me flowers but instead sent me a bouquet of cupcakes from this amazing little place in Knoxville called The Cupcakery. If you live in Knoxville and have never experienced the joys of The Cupcakery, where have you been and what are you waiting for. They are absolutely divine!! I could eat like 5 a day I swear. My favorite is Confetti, which is vanilla cake with butter cream icing with little confetti sprinkles. But I truly love them all. He also got me a neat recipe book that I've desperately been needing and some knitting needles.

So I didn't come up with anything nearly as amazing but I did come up with this little scavenger hunt around the house in order for Dalyn to find his gifts. I got him a new Bible and a bedside charger for his Storm. I thought the hunt was pretty creative and the clues lead him everywhere from our tool box in the basement to the dog food bin. His first first clue however was in a clear little box I made myself. I was amazed at my creative ability to get all this done. I'm so proud of the box I posted a pic of it. I also had to post a couple of pics of Dalyn on the hunt.

Lastly, since Dalyn was on call we decided to skip dinner on Saturday night, since it would be our luck to be in the middle of dinner and have to leave. So Sunday night, courteous of Dalyn's mom and dad, we had dinner at Ye Olde Steakhouse. I don't eat steak a lot but I do love it when I do and this steak was the most tender I've had in a long time. It was a really good dinner and good time spent together.

All in all, I don't believe in flowers, candy and teddy bears, but I do think that Valentine's Day is a great day to remind those you love just how much you care and appreciate them. I hope you all had a great day with those you love most!!

His clue in the car

Clue from the dog food box

Please note I made this box from two sheets of paper.

I'm pretty impressed with it

Yet Another Doctor Update

We went to the doctor this morning, yes, again!! Its funny I feel like the doctors and nurses have become extended family and well I guess that's probably a really good thing. I don't want to go into any detail(which its occurred to me that I'm sharing everything else, so I might as well) but I thought I would just give you all a little insight. Our medicine didn't do its job this month, other than making me feel horrible!!! Great, all the side effects and nothing else, just my luck! So chances are we won't be doing IUI this month. It still hasn't been decided for sure, but things are leaning pretty heavily towards no. If things play out this month and we don't get pregnant, which I'm not holding my breath for, we will be doing surgery for endometriosis in a few weeks. I will keep you updated if I learn more about surgery. For now just keep your fingers crossed, pray, meditate, jump in circles or whatever it is you do that by the grace of God we end up pregnant this month. I dread the thought of having surgery but will do whatever takes to have a child bless our lives.

Monday, February 9, 2009

Who hates the dentist?

I would have to say that 98% of the time I hear people everywhere talking about how much they hate the dentist. Yes, I realize its not a personal vengeance against the dentist as a person but the procedures he performs. I think a lot of people have one bad experience at the dentist and hate them all. Now that my husband is a dentist and I happen to love my dentist, I wish that people knew that not all dentists are bad or are out to purposely cause pain. With that said, I don't post a lot of stuff on here that Dalyn shows me, but this I just couldn't resist. And since he won't post things on here I'm going to share this for him. My heart goes out to this little boy because I have some of the same reactions to anesthesia but it is just to funny not to share. So enjoy!

Sunday, February 8, 2009

Fireproof Your Marriage

A couple of weeks ago, on a cold and rainy Saturday, Dalyn and I as we do often on Saturdays and Sundays decided to go browse the book store. Today we decided to go to Cedar Springs which is a local Christan bookstore, and I mean to tell you its huge, they have tons of books, music, etc. I could honestly spend hours in there. They normally have a section of their top ten pick books of the month, or actually I guess they call them the top ten must reads of the month. We ran into a book called "The Love Dare." After, a little looking around we decided to pick it up and give it a try. Here is the cover:
Dalyn and I feel like our marriage is strong but we also know it can never hurt to promote communication and bonding together, especially when times in life become trying. We've been doing it for a week or so now and I must say its pretty amazing. We got a chance yesterday to watch the movie that the book is based on, Fireproof. The movie has an amazing message for anyone. I highly recommend seeing the movie and if your have the time and dedication going through the dare. I thought I would post the excerpt off the back cover.

"Unconditional love is eagerly promised at weddings, but rarely practiced in real life. As a result, romantic hopes are often replaced with disappointment in the home. But it doesn't have to stay that way.

The Love Dare is a 40-day challenge for husbands and wives to understand and practice unconditional love. Whether your marriage is hanging by a thread or healthy and strong, The Love Dare is a journey you need to take. It's time to learn the keys to finding true intimacy and developing a dynamic marriage. Take the dare!

Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never fails.

-- 1 Corinthians 13:7-8


I thought with Valentine's day coming so soon this would be a great thing to share with your spouse, significant other, etc. Let me know if you see the movie, take the dare, or if you have already taken it. I hope you enjoy and it enriches your marriage as much as it has ours already.

Also, I wanted to post the link to Fireproof My Marriage and The Love Dare official website.

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

Doctor Update

So to spare anyone any unnecessary details (esp since I don't really know how many men read this), today was the dreaded day that every woman dreads each month. Also, a very important day though. My doctor wanted to wait until my hormones were kind of calm, which is apparently somewhere between day 1-4 of a woman's cycle, to do another ultrasound to see if the area she had previously seen on ultrasound had gone away. If it had gone away we wouldn't have to do surgery right now, which is obviously what we hoped for. Dalyn decided to skip this trip as it was kind of awkward for me even. I went this morning at 10 for an ultrasound.

Praise the Lord, our prayers have been answered yet again. Everything had went away and was back to a "normal" size and shape!!!!!!! Great news for me and us!!! For me it means NO surgery, or at least not right away. And for us it means we will start IUI this month. Pray God has his hands on us through the whole process because it is pretty intense for a couple of weeks. Pray that I can handle the meds and that they don't cause crazy side effects.

Obviously, I will keep you all updated as I can. For our own privacy we will keep somethings to ourselves but I will share as I can!

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

On The Prowl . . . for a job.

As you know, Dalyn's program here in Knoxville ends this coming June. (sad day) We have been on the hunt pretty steadily for the past couple of months for a job for him. The Lord answered our prayers last week and several really great opportunities opened up. One possible opportunity is for him to stay here in Knoxville for another year (something i know a lot of people are hoping for). We just got back from our second opportunity, which is in Washington, NC. For those of you that don't know Washington is right on the coast of NC, really close to Greenville, NC. Dalyn had an interview there this past Friday, so Thursday afternoon we loaded up and drove down. I must say it was quite a ride from Knoxville and about 6 hours from our home in NC. The interview went really well and while we aren't saying whether we are going to take the job yet or not, but I thought I would post a couple of pics of our new opportunity. The town was very quaint and cozy coastal town and was way different than I had pictured. Hope you enjoy the pics and we will be sure to let you know when we make a decision about where life will take us in just a few short months.

Monday, February 2, 2009

Who I am today

John Quincy Adams once wrote "All that I am my mother made me."

This quote definately holds true for me and I find as I have grown over the past few years it is becoming even more true. My mother passed away four years ago today. Its strange because it seems as though I can remember it as if it were yesterday. I find that a day never passes that I do not think of her, remember her smile, her laugh or her love. She was an amazing individual but an even more amazing mother. She taught me to be the person I am today.

I was hoping to post some pictures on here today of her, since most of you never knew her but I'm sad to say that all of my pictures are still hard copies, I didn't get my first digital camera until after she had passed away. I am hoping to get something to be able to start scanning my pictures onto the computer and when that happens I will add some pictures of her on here. In the meantime I had a very special thing that I want to share that I haven't shared since the funeral. This is a small thing that I wrote for her funeral. I hope that you enjoy because this is only the second time anyone has every heard either of these.

"When my mother passed away I knew that I wanted her service to be extra special, as she was an extra special person to a lot of people. But to have a service that reflected how special my mom was, everyon that she had touched would have to speak. I can only reflect what a special person my mom was to me, but I hope that somehow it will help you know how special my mom was to me. The following is an excerpt from a book, that my mother and I never got to start or even finish reading, but I thought it was extremely appropriate.

"Every woman is a daughter and every woman has a mother. The bond of the mother and daughter relationship is so profound, so deep and long-lasting that women oftern miss thier mother's for fifty years after they are gone. Once birthed a mother/daughter relationship is perhaps immortal. Being a mother is more than a role or an outcome of biology. Mothers are not just those women who give birth to the daughters they raise. To be truly mothered teaches us how to love, how to think, how to grow into our own potential, into our own womanhood. To mother is to give of oneself, to truly see and honor another and to care for her. Thankfully in a world that brings hardship as well as joy, mothers show up in all sorts of wonderful and magical ways."

In me, my mother seen her hopes and expectations; fulfillment, perhaps of her dreams and a journey down the road not taken. From my first breath, I opened a new vista for my mother to reach beyond herself. In my mother, I saw my foundation; my history and the lives of all those women who came before me. I seen myself and understood what it meant to be a woman.

Here I am four years later, and not having her in my life hasn't gotten any easier. I certainly think about her everyday and pray that she feels like I am growing up to be the woman she would want me to be. I know she is with me everyday and guides me to make the best decisions and choices in my life. I certainly miss her and know that will never get any easier. I wish that everyone knew what an amazing person she was, but I think and hope they see her spirit still alive in me.

Mom, I love you more than words can describe! You truly have shaped me into the person I am today. 04.30.58-02.02.05