Tuesday, November 5, 2013

Hellllllo Out There


Yes - It's been about a year and half since my last blog post. I don't know why but something in the last week or so has been pulling me back to my blog. I had considered starting a new one but I figured why? This is what I know, where I'm familiar. So here I am.

Life happened in the last year and half and has been completely insane! We moved across state, we purchased a dental practice, we moved again, I started and quit a job, the kids started preschool, we moved again . . . all with 2 crazy three year olds. So, that's a quick summary of what we've been up to in the last year and half. Not to mention I had pretty major surgery and then a breast cancer scare.

Some of the contemplation I've had about coming back stems from having gone through so much in the last year. My marriage has had some big rocks in the last year, my health has had some big rocks, but most of all my faith has had some even bigger rocks. So I can't help but to think God is pulling me back here for a reason. (Don't worry all of the above are back on track and I think growing stronger than ever.)

So, I don't really know where to start. . .
Do I recap everything?
Just the high notes?

I think I'll just feel it out as I go!

So for now, I'm sure you all are wondering mostly about my two beautiful, crazy, smart kiddos. We just spent a week in Disney World. So I couldn't think of a better time to share some of our pictures.

Wednesday, July 25, 2012

Life as it Happens

As our impending move draws near (two more full days left in town), each morning I wake up with different feelings and emotions than the day before. Maybe it's because I know in a week I'll be laying in a bed recouping from major surgery. Maybe it's because this house was my children's first home. Maybe it's because of all the uncertainty of the times ahead. Maybe it's because a new thought like that hits me everyday. I've never been extremely fond of this town. I don't really know why, I just don't care for it. So it would really make more sense for me to be excited about what's to come. 

A few night ago I was packing up the kids room, which is now completely empty minus cribs, and I started getting really emotional. This time 3 years ago we were moving here having just found out our first pregnancy was a blighted ovum. Not long after arriving I had just opted to have a D&C done. It was one of the most heartbreaking times in my life. I wasn't sure if the dreams I had of becoming a mother would ever come true. Low and behold three years later I have two beautiful, healthy, full of life children. I couldn't be more thankful of the blessing God has given us since we've been here. We have so many beautiful memories of our children here. . .  first smiles, first crawls, first steps, first words. . . . and now even potty training. We've had so ups and down over the last three years but wow have the ups been much more abundant. 

As the days draw to a close I try not to be as busy packing and getting things done and enjoy the last few days in this home as a family. I'm trying to remember that the memories are just that and will follow us where ever we go. This in the first time, in 8 moves, I've had such a sentimental goodbye. Thanks for the beautiful memories Eastern North Carolina, I'm sure we'll meet again someday!

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

Potty Training

Since our kids are getting a little older we haven't been having nearly as many 'big' milestones as before. I mean of course their vocabulary is exploding and they are growing into little people by the day but those sitting up, crawling, walking, etc milestones are becoming a little less frequent. Well, this weekend completely unexpected we decided to embark on a big toddler milestone. Of course the title gave it away so I thought I'd give it a little back story.

A few weeks ago we were in Raleigh at our favorite baby store and we stumbled across potty chairs we really liked. We had decided to hold off a few more weeks, since I didn't want to start potty training in the middle of a move. Well, over the last few weeks both kids but especially Landry had really been expressing interest in the bathroom and his bodily functions. He had been telling us after he would pee and was also staying dry for several hours at a time. So we decided just to ride back up and get the potties even though we weren't sure we'd need them right away. While we were up there Dalyn had taken Landry into the bathroom with him several times to pee, then in the cheesecake factory he went with me. Out of no where he said 'pee pee potty' so I asked him if he was wanting to go in the big boy potty and he said yes. We didn't have any luck but we kind of just decided maybe he was a little more ready than we thought.

Sunday when we woke up we decided it was now or never and we didn't want to miss his window. So we say up the potty chairs in the middle of the living room, stripped them both naked and gave them the green light to start using the potty. The day was filled with a few accidents here and there but overall they took to it like champs.

Monday, I didn't really know what to expect being home by myself all say. But they did great and I haven't been that proud of a mommy in a long time! Neither one had an accident all day and Landry stayed dry all the way through nap to pee when he woke up!! He even managed #2 in the potty by afternoons end!!! Finley had a little more difficult day. She has a stubborn steak miles wide. (I have not idea where she gets it from *winkwink*)she didn't pee or poop all morning but didn't have any accidents either. I decide at nap maybe she wasn't quite ready for potty training so I decided I'd let her take her time. But when she woke up from nap it was like something had clicked and he did great the rest of the afternoon!

Today brought Day 3 of potty training and a new twist. I knew I had to go have my car services this morning so I wasn't really sure how to handle that with two potty training toddlers. I decided it was probably best to wear diapers, so I used pull ups. I asked them both to potty before we left the house and they both said no. However, as soon as we got to the dealership Landry said he needed to pee. So we rushed off to the bathroom and sure enough my little man pee pee for the first time in a public potty!!!! Mark another insanely proud mommy moment. Finley said she needed to go a little while later but got spooked by the big big potty and then the automatic flush. Landry told me again a little later at target he needed to pee but by the time we made it to the bathroom he had used his diaper. Once we've been home today, they've done great and Finley seems to really be understanding and controlling her bladder better. Landry has continued to be a rock star!! I think we just caught him at the perfect moment.

I'm hoping and praying that this isn't a fluke and things continue to go as smoothly as they have been!!! Of course potty training wouldn't be complete without an embarrassing pics.

Monday, July 9, 2012

Happy Post

Okay since I left you with a morbid couple of posts for my first post back in 5 months I thought I'd share a picture of my beautiful family......

As Promised

I promised myself I was coming back to blog another post soon. Well, I'm happy to say I've made it back!!! I'm having a pretty proud moment right now. So I went in for my second opinion on Friday. I hated to go by myself but I managed to make it right during nap time, so that was about the only option.  This doctor wasn't much more re-assuring than the other one. One of the things that had initially made mention of was a Desmoid tumor. This doctor felt confident that it wasn't a desmoid and even went so far as to say, if he had to choose he would probably go with something more cancerous before he would say desmoid. But was also quick to say he didn't want to put any negative thoughts in my head. Confusing, huh? He said he felt like it should come out immediately. I agreed and he was out the door to prepare paperwork in order to get surgery scheduled. When the scheduling lady came to get me she broke the news that it would be the second week in August before he could get to the surgery. Does immediate equal the second week in August in anyone else's mind? Yeah, mine neither. I politely informed the lady that my family would be moving back to WNC the end of July, that I'd have to speak with my husband and get back with her. After talking with all our family and friends I am now scheduled for a 3rd opinion in Asheville, NC on Monday. This is where we will be moving back to and I think its probably for the best if I have surgery there. I'll be surrounded by family and friends who will be able to tend to my needs and the kiddos needs at the same time. Thanks to everyone on here who came back and commented or sent me emails or called! Its means the world to me after being gone for 5 months to come back and still have people care!! I'll hopefully be back first of next week to update on where things go after that appointment. Please continue to keep me in your prayers!

Oh, I know everyone is dying to see my kiddos. Update coming on the them tonight or tomorrow!!!

Thursday, July 5, 2012

Anyone still out there?

Yes, it's been almost exactly 5 months since I set foot on this blog. Sad, I know. Catching up on some of my old blogs I've missed so much and well frankly there has been a lot happening on my end too. I now have 2 year olds. CRAZY! We're about to make another move. On and On. I hope I'm back for a while but we'll see where the road leads. I want to update on everything soon. But one of the main reasons I came back is because lately I had been thinking about some of the most stressful times in my life and how I managed to cope with those times. I started the blog when we were just about to embark on infertility treatments. A friend had encouraged me to get online and start a blog and go from there. I've met some amazing women through this blog! And found some of the most amazing encouragement and support through it. I honestly, don't know how well I would've done without putting my feelings into words. And recently, I've found that I need that kind of support and encouragement again.

About 2 1/2 months ago while laying bed one night I laid my hand down on my belly and felt a little "knot". Naturally, I pressed around on it and poked, it was definitely a little knot and even made Dalyn feel. But didn't think much of it and blew it off, vowing I would see a doctor soon. Several weeks went by and I had to make an emergency trip to WNC to take care of my grandmother who was having knee surgery. While there this little "knot" start hurting me. With some convincing from Dalyn, my grandmother and my best friend I decided it was time to have it checked out. On such short notice the only place I really had to option of going was urgent care. After a little poking and pressing by the doctor, she confirmed that yes she felt a "knot" there too. She recommended I go have an ultrasound done just to see what was going on. Fast forward.....ultrasound didn't show anything, she recommended I have a CT. Since I was headed back to ENC in a few days I decided I'd hold off and have a CT done there. Fast forward again.....3 weeks after arriving home I FINALLY decided to see a doctor here and get that CT done. Fast forward through that and an MRI and no for sure sound diagnosis and I'm left with a tumor. Yes, I typed it TUMOR. I seen a surgeon a week or so ago who can't tell me what it is but that it has to come out. He can't tell me that its cancer but he can't tell me its benign. He can't tell me what it is or is not. So I'm left with endless amounts of questions without answers. The surgeon told me the surgery is going to be painful. They are going to take muscle and fascia and the entire tumor out. He wants to error on the side of "worst case" and by doing that it requires him to take as much as he needs to out. I will have a hospital stay and won't be able to life my kids for at least 2 weeks. I decided with all this information it was probably a good idea to get a second opinion. So I'm off to get a second opinion tomorrow. Although, my feelings are he's probably going to tell me the same thing.

Bombshell?? Yes. I know you all were probably thinking I was going to tell you I was pregnant or some amazing news like that. But well, life happens. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't a ball of mess. I go from worried to scared to okay to happy to sad or anxious or nervous to about to fall of the edge. I'm trying my best to just go day by day. But even that hasn't been enough. So while Dalyn and I were talking about ways to cope the other night, he brought up my blog and my hearts been pulled ever since then. So here I am. And I feel like it's where I should be. Hopefully, I'll find the same amazing support and encouragement to know that I"m not alone in my journey. If nothing else just please say a prayer for me and my family.

Thursday, February 9, 2012


I made the big leap and went back to work about 4 weeks ago. Hence, the absence on here. I'm working kind of part time but couple that with my full time job here and life has been out of control! I feel like I'm keeping up much better this time but I just don't have time for the excess (i.e. blogging).

We also have so many other big chances coming on the horizon and we've been busy trying to prepare for those. I'm still cooking my way though pinterest, so I have some great recipes to share! I've also attempted a few craft projects too! Since one of them involves Valentine's Day, I'll have to refrain from sharing until at least tomorrow.

I know I've been saying this for months but I've got to get an update up on my almost two year olds!!! TWO!! Wow, that just doesn't really seem possible. Oh yeah along with the changes I've got a second birthday to plan. I'm thinking about keeping it much more simple than last year but we'll see.

For now my pillow is calling my name! Hope you all have a wonder day filled with love tomorrow. Here's a little love from my two littlest Valentine's.