100 Days to Go
180 days ago I started this journey and never thought it would be quite as amazing as it has been. Or nearly as easy as its been so far. Initially, I questioned if I was ready to start treatments again; I questioned if I was prepared if heartbreak should occur again; I questioned if I was meant to carry a child of my own; I questioned everything about the journey. But God gave me the most amazing peace once we started. It was just like I felt everything was meant to happen. Yet I had no idea if it really would.
So after all that here I am 100 days (realistically I know its probably more like 86 or so but we're going with 100) from the end of this amazing journey and I find myself in constant awe of this entire process. I've had an amazing pregnancy so far and loved every second of being pregnant so I'm sad to see these days start clicking away even faster but at the same time I can't wait to get my babies here healthy. Its such a bitter-sweet process. Right now I feel them with me constantly and I know I can do everything in my power to protect them and know their safe. But in 100 days I feel like I'll lose a little of that control and it scares me like crazy. I have a whole new set of crazy questions. I ask Dalyn the other night, I said 'What if I forget to feed one of them.' The laughed and assured me they wouldn't let me forget.
So as the days roll by I'm trying to savor every last memory of this pregnancy. I know that this may possibly be the last time I'm ever pregnant in my life so I want to enjoy it completely!Here's to celebrating the next 99 days to the fullest and delivering health plump little ones!!
So after all that here I am 100 days (realistically I know its probably more like 86 or so but we're going with 100) from the end of this amazing journey and I find myself in constant awe of this entire process. I've had an amazing pregnancy so far and loved every second of being pregnant so I'm sad to see these days start clicking away even faster but at the same time I can't wait to get my babies here healthy. Its such a bitter-sweet process. Right now I feel them with me constantly and I know I can do everything in my power to protect them and know their safe. But in 100 days I feel like I'll lose a little of that control and it scares me like crazy. I have a whole new set of crazy questions. I ask Dalyn the other night, I said 'What if I forget to feed one of them.' The laughed and assured me they wouldn't let me forget.
So as the days roll by I'm trying to savor every last memory of this pregnancy. I know that this may possibly be the last time I'm ever pregnant in my life so I want to enjoy it completely!Here's to celebrating the next 99 days to the fullest and delivering health plump little ones!!
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