Wednesday, November 10, 2010

Breaths

So I find myself in tears a lot sometimes. I thought it would be just a pregnancy thing that would go away soon after the babies were delivered but it hasn't. I think it's because my life is more amazing than I could've ever imagined. So tonight as we were sitting watching the CMAs. Yes I LOVE country music. I mean I like a lot of music but you can't live in Nashville for four years and not have a heart for country music. But anyways, I've never been a huge George Strait. I mean I have a few songs of his that I like but when he sang his new song I couldn't help but cry. So I thought I would share,



He looks up from second base 
dad’s up in the stands
He saw the hit, the run, the slide 
there ain’t no bigger fan

In the parking lot after the game he said
“Dad I thought you had a plane to catch”
He smiled and said “Yeah son I did”

Life’s not the breaths you take
The breathing in and out
That gets you through the day
Ain’t what it’s all about
Ya just might miss the point
Try’n to win the race
Life’s not the breaths you take
But the moments that take your breath away

Fast forward fifteen years
And a thousand miles away
Boy’s built a life he’s got a wife
And a baby due today
He hears a voice saying “I made it son
He said “I told you dad you didn’t have to come”
He smiles and says ”Yeah I know you did”

Life’s not the breaths you take
The breathing in and out
That gets you through the day
Ain’t what it’s all about
Ya just might miss the point
If ya don’t slow down the pace
Life’s not the breaths you take
But the moments that take your breath away

Just like it took my breath when she was born
Just like it took my breath away when dad took his last that morn

Life’s not the breaths you take
The breathing in and out
That gets you through the day
Ain’t what it’s all about
Ya just might miss the point
If ya don’t slow down the pace
Life’s not the breaths you take
But the moments that take your breath away





So the part that caught me so strongly was when it talks about a baby being due today. Made me think back to the day my sweet babies were born and then makes me think back to the day my mom took her last breath. I thought I needed my mom when I got married or graduated or when I was pregnant. But, some days now I find myself needing her more than I ever have. She was my rock. There are definitely days that I just take a deep breath and say 'mom, where are you when I need you the most.' So of course that got me a little teary eyed. But then Dalyn looked down at Finley (landry was asleep) and said 'baby girl, i held my breath and pushed every second with your mommy until you entered this world and I could breath.' Although everyday I wish I could bring my mom back I am thankful for my life here and now. I know she would be absolutely in love with these little ones but I know she watches over them night and day. So although life may be challenging, stressful, crazy try to remember those 'moments that take your breath away' make every other second with living. 

1 comment:

WantWait&Pray said...

Awww...this made me tear up. Jess, do your babies ever get a shiver that sort of shakes thier little body and their head? It happens a lot with H & H...just a little shiver. Well, my father in law passed away 6 months before we got married (cancer) and so when the babies shiver like that, I tell them that it's their Grandpa in heaven giving them a little kiss and his whiskers give them a little tickle. I know my husband misses his dad in all of the big things.....most more so in the everyday life stuff.
I can't imagine losing my mom, going through the pregnancy w/o her...you are very strong my friend.