Thursday, July 30, 2009

JuJu Giveaway & Me

So fellow blogger and Phi Mu sister, Ashley, is hosting several blog giveaways. One from a new company call JuJu. Apparently their website is up and coming but the giveaway that Ashley has is so cute that I couldn't resist passing it on. So head on over to her site and register for giveaway and check out JuJu. Below is a pic of her JuJu giveaway, fabulous huh?


I also snapped a picture of this little guy crawling around the front porch today and wanted to share him with you. Speaking of front porch, something new I'm having to get use to, is the fact that apparently when you live on the water you call the porch and yard on the water the "front" and driveway and yard the "back." I don't know why I'm having such a hard time but it's just not something I'm use to.

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Moving/New Town Blues

So about this time into a move I start to get what I refer to as the "moving blues." Its that point where your not busily packing/loading/driving/unpacking/organizing/sorting. Its that point where you realize that you no longer have friends close by and the only person you have to call on for a "lunch date" is your hubby. Its when you realize that your all alone, in a new place, starting over, again!! Yes, it is as depressing as it sounds!! Well for no apparent reason it really hit me today. Maybe it's because I've been really busy unpacking or because Dalyn's been with me or because I've been busy with job interviews but I was starting to think maybe I wouldn't get it with this move. Well, no, hello moving blues. So I thought I would use this post to put a smile on my face with some of those people far, far away that I love and miss so dearly!! Please don't be offended if I don't list you. This will also give all of you a chance to meet those nearest and dearest to us.
This is my maternal grandmother. My mom, my grandmother and I have always had a very special bond and relationship. Since my mom passed away in 2005 my grandmother and I have gotten even close and lean on each other for a lot of support. Nothing happens in my life that I don't talk to my grandmother about. The truly has been a mother to me since my mom died.

This is my uncle (mom's brother), aunt and their grandson whom they are raising. My uncle has been a huge part of my life since the day I was born. He has spoiled me since I was little and I know that he would do anything in the world for me. He married Diane in 2006 and she is the sweetest, kindest person you will ever know.

**Disclaimer - I didn't post a pic of my dad because well he just left us and while I do love him and miss him dearly, I've seen him very recently. For the most part these are people I haven't seen for a while.**

This is Dalyn's mom and dad. I can't begin to say enough about them. I married into the absolute most amazing family ever. I thank God everyday that he gave me such a wonderful family to be a part of. They accepted me from day one and treat me as their real daughter. They give us more unconditional support and love than two people could ask for.


This is Ashley and Tony. Our most nearest and dearest bestest of friends. Our friendship came about in a very round about way but has been an amazing, fun filled one for the last 7 years!! A interested fact about us is that since we've been best friends we've never lived in the same city. We have such an amazing friendship that we make it happen to see each other. Rarely a day goes by that I don't talk to Ashley. This is also Reeslyn, Ashley and Tony's daughter, she is almost 9 mos old and has been an absolute light of our lives for the last 9 mos. I love her like she is one of my own and can't wait to watch her grow up in the coming years. **She's also patiently waiting a playmate from Uncle Dalyn and Aunt Jess :-) **

This is Jonathan, Casey and Liam. (Their daughter Nora to come later) We've known them for a little over a year but feel like its been years. They are truly a God sent in our lives and we love them so dearly. We met them in Knoxville and say their part of the reason why we love Knoxville so much! They truly are the type of people/friends who come along very rarely.

This is Nora (Jonathan and Casey's daughter) and Amy (Jonathan's sister). I can't begin to tell you what a little joy Nora is. She is at that age where she is so much fun to be around and makes to laugh at almost everything. Nora was my saving light at times over the past few year. Sometimes if I was having a hard infertility day just being around Nora would make it all go away. I've known Amy for a little less than a year but am so happy she became a part of my life. Becoming such good friends with Amy came so easy, she's such an amazing person and so delightful to be around.

This is Brad and Cassie. I could go on and on about the history with them but I'll keep it short. Brad and Dalyn have been best friends since they were in kindergarten, they even lived together for a few years in college. Naturally, Cassie and I had to become friends. She's so fun to be around and I'm glad they brought us together as friends. They recently moved to Knoxville so we got to spend about a month in the same city with them.

Last but certainly not least is Kelley and Jonathan. Jonathan and Dalyn went to dental school together and Kelley and I became good friends from the moment we met. We spent lots of time with them for the 4 years while they were in school. They are both two truly amazing people and we miss them dearly. We're hoping a vacation or visit with them will be in the near future.

Of course there are tons of other people but we'd be here all night if I listed everyone. So if I didn't list you please don't be offended we certainly miss you too. Moving to a new town makes you realize what amazing people you have in your life and how much you miss them when their now around on a regular basis.

Monday, July 27, 2009

Oh The Dilemma

So I've recently found myself in the middle of a dilemma I never really thought I'd find myself in. You see, two years ago when we first started trying for a baby I was so certain we'd be pregnant right off the bat, I'd work for 9 mos until the baby was born, take off for 3 mos or so with the baby and then head back to work. Well when we moved to Knoxville I took a part time job and little did I know it was heaven sent. It gave me plenty of time to deal with all my infertility doctors appts, etc without having to take off work. And here's where the dilemma begins. When we found ourselves pregnant a few months ago we debated whether I would find a job in Washington or just go ahead and retire myself to be a stay-at-home-mom-to-be :-). We hadn't made a decision yet but once we found out that we were going to lose the baby I moved forward with searching for a job. I've recently been on several job interviews for full time jobs and well it's become a concern that with our new doctors office about 30 min away and working 40 hours a week that it may cause a huge interference with infertility treatments. So here's our dilemma, do I (a) take a full time job and put treatments on the back burner (b) take a part time job and still have time for treatments (c) not work and bore myself to death around the house. It's amazing how much time infertility takes up and well it's kind of going to be hard to start a new job and then be like "oh yeah, I need off like once a week for about 2 hours, so we can try to get pregnant, so when we do I can leave." So I've been debating back and forth with myself about what to do. I guess right now I'm just praying that the perfect job will fall into my lap but trying to come to grips with the reality it might not and that I might have to choose a, b, or c.

Thursday, July 23, 2009

ChocoVine

This morning while I was watching Kathy Lee & Hoda they taste-tested a wine called ChocoVine. It's a mix of wine and chocolate. They didn't seem all to impressed and I'm not sure I would be either. What do you think? Have you tried it before?
ChocoVine
 is a fine French Cabernet subtly combined with a rich dark Chocolate from Holland, paired together to create a decadent, silky smooth drink, which can be served by itself on the rocks or as the main ingredient to an array of sinful cocktails. ~ From the ChocoVine Website

Thoughtful Thursday

I'm trying up with new things to keep my blog interested other than my crazy infertility life. I've promised myself to try and blog at least 3-4 days a week about things non-fertility related. Well, as much as I've promised myself not to blog about miscarriage/infertility related stuff I do have a thought that I would like to share. Someone texted me this quote the other day and I thought how extremely appropriate this is for so many things that have happened in my life, including losing our first pregnancy. So the quote reads:

"When God takes something from your grasp, He's not punishing you, but merely opening your hands to receive something better."

So obviously this couldn't be more appropriate with losing our first pregnancy. I've tried extremely hard to continue to place my faith in God through this time but would be lying if I said it wasn't hard at times to continue to trust in Him. When I got this quote it brought me to tears because it really made me think that "yes, something better is going to come of this." Although, things still seem unclear at the moment I know one day I'll be able to look back and understand why we've gone through infertility and losing our first pregnancy. 

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Wordless Wednesday

The beautiful sunsets from our new front porch!

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Temptation Tuesday

I decided to participate in the MckLinky Blog Hop favorite recipe today. Its about your favorite recipes. My dear friend Casey made me this recipe right after I had surgery and it now a regular in our house. I love it!! and it couldn't be easier.

Ingredients:
1 1/2 lbs of chicken breast, cut into 1 inch pieces
1 package of Lipton's Onion Soup mix
1/4 cup water
1 8 oz. fat free or low fat cream cheese, softened
1 can fat free cream of mushroom soup
1 4 oz. can of mushrooms, drained

Directions:
In crockpot, combine chicken, soup mix, and water. Cook on low heat for 4 hours.In a separate bowl, combine cream cheese, mushroom soup, and mushrooms. Combine with cooked chicken in crockpot. Continue cooking for one additional hour. (5 hours cooking time total). Serve over angel hair pasta.

**I've used everything from pasta to egg noodles to rice to mashed potatoes. It goes great on everything.**


MckLinky Blog Hop

Monday, July 20, 2009

HELP

Comments are up and working!! Thanks for the help.
So it's come to my attention that people apparently can't post comments on my blog?!? Is that the case? Can you post a comment? If you can't post comments to my posts can someone please email me how to fix this?? I thought I had the whole blog thing down but apparently not.
HELP!

Saturday, July 18, 2009

The Scarlet Thread

So this is probably going to be my last pregnancy/infertility/baby blog for a while. I need to take a little break, so for all of you who follow me strictly for that reason please still read, I promise I'll try and blog about other interesting stuff.

As I'm sure you read in some of my last post Dalyn and I were diagnosed with a blighted ovum just shortly after we found out we were pregnant. We were given the option at the time to either miscarry naturally or have a D & C. Because of our impending move we decided it would probably be smarter to miscarry naturally. Well three weeks went by and still not spotting, cramping or any sign that my body was going to miscarry anytime soon. So after much nagging from family and friends I made a follow-up appointment to a new doctor here in Greenville. We went last Friday, June 17 to see the new doctor. Basically, the sac was still there and had continued to grow in size but was still empty. Again he gave us the same options. He said that he thought we had made the right decision not to do the D & C a few weeks ago but had to decide what we were emotionally ready for at this point. We made the decision that it was time for us to move forward from this and went ahead with the D & C. I'm not going to go into details but it was really painful and I had a really rough weekend recuperating. We both feel at peace with our decision and know that God has a plan although we may not understand it at this point in time.

We loved our new doctor and really made us feel comfortable and helped us through this difficult experience. He told us this story right before we left and it really gave me a lot of peace so I wanted to share it with you guys, so in case any of you are experiencing or have experienced anything similar to what we've been going through. He said that C.S. Lewis had written this passage and it explained that there was this tapestry and it had a beautiful scarlet thread woven through it. On the side you and I see it's knotted and tangled and frayed and makes no sense. But on the side God sees it's perfect and everything makes perfect sense and that one day you and I would be able to see that side and everything would be perfectly clear. But that for now it seemed that things were a knotted ugly mess. I couldn't believe how true this was. I know that everything is in God's plan right now and even through it doesn't make sense to me now, one day it will.

So with this post I'm closing a chapter on our first pregnancy. And with it I'm also going to be taking a break from blogging about infertility for a little while. While I enjoy being able to share our story with others and hopefully give people lots of hope, it's been a really rough emotional time for us and I know its not going to be over immediately. And at this point I just think it's probably better that we take a step back to see where to go with our infertility journey from here. Please continue to pray for us and our families as this has truly impacted a large number of people. Pray for our strength and guidance to get through this very difficult journey.

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Early Sea Life Memories

So as most of you know by now we're living on the Pamlico Sound. We live still on the River section however it is considered brackish water but we've been told for whatever reason the past few summers they've seen an increase in the salt in the water and now its pretty salty. So far we've been loving living on the water. It's like waking up on vacation every morning. Our dogs have been slowly adjusting to life on the water as well. I wanted to be sure to document some of the recent events in a life adjustment on the water.
We discovered yesterday that Boston, our yorkie, can't swim. He brings his two front legs to far out of the water and sinks. This morning Dalyn and I walked him to a little sandy/beachy area and he did better today but I think its going to take a lot of practice.
Sampson has yet to attempt to really all out swim. He loves the water and has stepped off and had to paddle back really quickly but he's not gotten far enough to really swim.
Allie, on the other hand is our swimmer. Yes, she's a mini-daschund and yes, we know she's shouldn't be able to swim but she does and loves it. Usually she stay really close and does really good just fetching sticks and bringing them back to shore. However, today she got a wild hair of dove off in the water and started swimming pretty far out into the water. I though surely she wouldn't go to far but the more we called her to come back the farther she swam. Before we knew it she was 1/2 way across the Sound. From our house to the other side is probably oh about 3/4 to a mile. We got worried that she would get exhausted and drown or that a boat might hit her. So knowing I couldn't swim that far we grabbed all we had, a tub and a small paddle. So off in the Pamlico I went for my first swim. Happy ending to the story, I finally made it to her and we made it back to the shore safely. I could have killed her and needless to say she won't be swimming for a few days but all turned out ok and its something to look back and be amazed by now.
So that's all my stories for now. I'm sure there will be many more to come.

Sunday, July 12, 2009

Back to Blogging Reality

Wow, I can't even find words to describe to you guys what a world wind the last two weeks of our lives has been like. I'm going to give a really quick run down and then recap some other happenings. Dalyn finished up his residency at UT Knoxville last Tuesday (June 30) and we packed up all of our stuff to sit in limbo for a few days. We went home to stay with family until we heard from his board scores. We got home around 9ish Tuesday night and boy were we glad to see a real mattress. We had packed all our stuff, including mattresses, in the back of an ABF moving truck so we had been sleeping on an air mattress for like 4 days. We found out Thursday that we would be continuing our journey onto Washington, NC for Dalyns new job. However, we decided there was no sense to rush so we spend the remainder of the holiday weekend with family and friends in Western North Carolina. Monday morning we pulled out, along with my dad, on our long trek to Washington, NC. It took us about 7 1/2 hours and we arrived at our new house around 6ish. We've spend the next few days unloading the truck, unpacking boxes, painting and sprucing up around the house. We are needless to say absolutely exhausted. I don't think any of us have motivation for any more at this point but the show must go on. I feel like we've made a pretty good dent in everything and should hopefully be really settled in the coming week. Dalyn should start to work sometime in the next two weeks but for now I have a "honey-do" list a mile long. Don't feel bad for him though he has my dad here to help. As for me I haven't even started the job search yet so at of now I'm unemployed. So other than that I thought I would take a few moment to answer a few of our most commonly asked questions since we've moved to the coast of NC.

How do you like the house/area?
So far we are absolutely in love with the house. It couldn't be more amazing. We're so ready for family and friends to start visiting so we can share our amazing digs with them too. We haven't been out and about in the area much but what little we have been, we like it so far. People in town are so extremely nice and friendly, its really an adjustment. One of my biggest complaints thus far is sand. Now don't get me wrong, we're not living right on the sandy beach, but there is enough sand around that when our dogs go out and even get this slightest bit wet they drag 3 lbs of sand back in.

How are the dogs adjusting?
Well for those of you that probably don't know there is no type of fencing around this house at all. So our dogs are free to roam the neighborhood, which is something they've never really had. So far I would say we're doing, "ok." We've had our really good moments and we've had our really bad moments. Luckily, the neighborhood is pet friendly and everyone has dogs and loves other dogs. So I would say all in all they are still adjusting but they are doing really good. Allie, is our swimmer, and she is absolutely LOVING being on the water. She swimming at least two or three times a day now. Our neighbors can't believe that she swims like she does and that she's as old as she is. Also, because they've been running like a pack of wild dogs everywhere, they have been exhausted. When they come inside they lay down and just sleep like I've never seen them sleep before. We love it, especially at night!!

And the ever present question, How am I doing?
Technically, if you can still measure I'm 9 weeks. I have not miscarried yet. If it doesn't happen this week I will need to go back next week. I had a RhoGam shot and it's only good for three weeks and next Monday will be my three weeks. So my goal this week is to find a doctor to get into. Its amazing that I haven't had any cramping or spotting at all. When we went to the doctor before we left Knoxville she seemed to think I wouldn't go anymore than three weeks, so I guess we'll see. Its kind of strange to me because I'm at a point that some of my pants are getting a little tight and I feel like I'm showing a little. So I feel like I'm not going to be able to handle it emotionally in another week or so. But we'll leave it up to the new doctor and see what she says.

Well, I think that's all for now. I'm certainly happy to be back in the land of the blogging. Hopefully, I'll be able to get back to blogging a lot more but don't hold me to it, at least not for the next week or so. Oh, and I almost forgot we got to see a bunch of porpoises swimming right off our dock tonight. I was so neat to see them our there playing and swimming around.

Friday, July 3, 2009

Goodbye, Hello

Goodbye, 37919

Hello, 27889
Yes, that's right for those of you wondering Dalyn passed his boards so we are officially off to Washington, NC. We are going to spend through the holiday with family and then leave Monday to start getting things settled down there. We're very excited to get moved and settled for a few years but we're also very sad that we are actually really leaving Knoxville. We know it's just Goodbye, for now.