Thursday, December 31, 2009

Sugar and Spice

And all that's nice,

That's what little girl's are made of.

But that's not all

Frogs and snails
And puppy dog tails,

That's what little boy's are made of.

In case you don't get the correlation, we are having A BOY and A GIRL!!!!

We couldn't be more happier!! They were both very very active, so much to that it took the tech several tries to get pics of our little girls heart and several tries for the little boys spine. We got an amazing picture of the girl sucking her thumb and another of the boy swallowing. And of course we got pics of the money shots. My goal in the next few days is to get something that will allow me to scan the u/s pics so I will post those later and also a pic of us before the big reveal.

But both babies are perfectly healthy and every part of them looked perfect. They also took a measurement of my cervix and it was nice and long. She said everything looked so good they didn't want to see me for another 5 weeks. Wow!! way to cooperate body and babies. We have absolutely overwhelmed with excitement!! Our plans for tomorrow include going to register and do some baby shopping.

Thanks for all the guesses!! Looks like 11 of you got it! Please continue to pray that my pregnancy continues to go easy and the babies continue to remain amazingly healthy and that they continue to grow as they should.

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Emergency Doctor Visit Number 2

Twice!!! in almost 18 weeks!!! I don't know if that's a good sign or a bad one. This morning I woke up about 4:30 with menstrual like cramping, I thought it was probably ligament pain and took some Tylenol and laid back down. When I woke up again at 7:30 I had intense burning along with the cramps. After hopping in the shower I decided I needed to call the drs office. Of course you would know it would be the day they didn't open until 9am. I called the on call doctor but he was in surgery. Go figure!! So I waited until 9 and called the office, they said they wanted to see me right away so off we went. Unfortunately when we got there we were suppose to see the on call doc and he was still at the hospital so we had to wait a while. After we finally got to see him he checked me and my cervix and listened to the babies heartbeats. He said my cervix was perfect and the babies heartbeats were 148 and 162. He is going to send my urine off to check for UTI and then he gave me some stuff for a yeast infection. He also said he wanted to get a little more aggressive with the constipation I had been experiencing off and on. So I'm pushing lots of fluids! He did say we could come back this afternoon and do our scan but we decided since I wasn't feeling great we'd just keep it tomorrow. I've been home all afternoon just being lazy. It has eased off some and the pain has been bearable this afternoon. He did say it could still be some of the round ligament pain kicking in.

In other news I have gained 5 lbs in the last 2 weeks. I'm blaming it all on Christmas but that puts me up 13 lbs so far. He also said that my uterus was now measuring about 23 weeks or so. I'll update more tomorrow after I get from my appt and hopefully have the much anticipated sexes!!!!! My appt isn't until 2:30 and I dread having to wait all day but maybe it will go by fast.

Monday, December 28, 2009

Pregnancy - Week 16 & 17

So I couldn't get my normal little pictures to load so I found this picture of twins at 16 weeks. I know I'm a little behind but with the holidays things just got away from me. So I'm going to do a dual update as I doubt I'll get two seconds to blog for the remainder of the week.

How far along: 17 weeks 2 days

Total weight gain/loss: I haven't weighed myself but will @ my appt on Thurs so then I'll know for sure.

Maternity clothes: Pretty much in maternity at this point, except I can still wear some of my regular tops. Speaking of clothes, I spent half the day yesterday cleaning out my closet. I have way to many clothes normally but add in all the maternity clothes I've been blessed with and I had no more room. So I packed up a whole bunch of my pre-pregnancy clothes.

Stretch marks: None yet.

Sleeping: My sleeping continues to suck. Last week while we were at Dalyn's parents house, I slept horrible. The bed is so firm and without laying on my back I couldn't get comfortable.

Best moment last week:Spending Christmas with our families. Everyone is in such an uproar about the babies that pretty much all it was focused on. I'm also still feeling them move with never ceases to amaze me.

Symptoms: Lack of sleep, constant hunger, headaches, peeing all the time and round ligament pain still. My itching has pretty much gone away with some Aveeno soap and body wash and lots of lotion. I am still have ligament pain about once to twice a week. I'm starting to think I'm growing those days but who knows.

Food cravings: Still loving my onion soup. I'm still craving some weird things here and there.

Food aversions: Not much of anything anymore.

Gender: We go New Year's EVE to find out the sexes. I still think boy/girl and Dalyn is now on the fence, he's started to lean towards two boys. After hearing all the old wives tales this weekend people have started to make him think boys.

I miss: NOTHING!! I'm so ready to find out what the babies are I'm about to jump out of my skin. I can't wait to start buying stuff.

What I am looking forward to: Our OB appt Thursday

Body Changes: Not a ton to report. I think my hips are starting to spread some because the one pair of maternity pants that fit me perfectly before are getting a little snug. I also think I'm faintly started to get the little line down the center of your belly called Linea nigra. Its very very faint but I definitely think its coming. Other than that, stay tuned for the sexes in just a few days.

Friday, December 18, 2009

Pregnancy - Week 15

What's happening with the babies this week?
Your baby is preparing himself/herself for a growth spurt over the next several weeks. Your baby's head is more erect now than it has been in the previous weeks. His/her ears and eyes are situated in their final positions. These three things are giving your baby a more "normal" appearance. Several of the more complicated body systems are also beginning to function including your child's urinary and circulatory system. Your baby's heart pumps around 25 quarts of blood per day.

How far along: 15 weeks 6 days

Total weight gain/loss: 9 lbs as of yesterday

Maternity clothes: Pretty much in maternity at this point, except I can still wear some of my regular tops.

Stretch marks: None yet.

Sleeping: This has been the worst week of sleep I think I've had in my ENTIRE life!!! Don't ask me why but I feel like I haven't slept all week.

Best moment last week:Feeling the babies moving! Yep, that's right I have started to be able to feel them. I thought I had for the last few weeks occasional but now that my uterus is high, I can definitely feel them. Of course its not constant yet but its a relief to be able to feel them whenever I can. Sometimes they get to fluttering around it almost tickles from the inside out. I can't wait until Dalyn can feel them but he loves being able to know when they are moving around.

Symptoms: Oh where do I begin, I thought this was all suppose to stop in the second trimester. Lack of sleep, constant hunger, headaches, peeing all the time and I am constantly itchy and round ligament pain still.

Food cravings: I am in love with Japanese Onion Soup right now. Weird, huh? I think I could eat like 3 bowls a day. I'm also eating things that I never eat before I was pregnant. I had BBQ ribs last night for dinner and have only ever had ribs like twice before in my life.

Food aversions: Just bacon

Gender: We go New Year's EVE to find out the sexes. I still think boy/girl and Dalyn still thinks girls. Remember to vote!!

I miss: sleep! I've always been one to sleep like 8 hours and sleep sound. I miss that sound sleep but I'll deal without forever to get these two little ones here healthy.

What I am looking forward to: I'm so excited about finding out the sexes I could care less if we just skipped right on by Christmas. So I would have to say I'm more looking forward to what they are!!

Body Changes: I think my belly is growing at a much faster rate than I imagined it would. I'm going to try and start taking weekly pics from now on but I can't promise anything. I had a small scare yesterday, I was having terrible pains and pressure so when I call the drs office they wanted to see me right away. Turns out it was that darn round ligament pain again. He said my uterus is measuring at about 19 weeks which is pretty common. Its right at my belly button which I could feel too. He said the ligament pain normally starts about then in a singleton and continues to about 30 weeks, so he pretty much said to get use to it. Oh and did I mention he informed me I was going to be huge!! Thanks doc! He also said I needed to start sleeping on my side now, so I'm trying to get use to that. We asked him if we could do an u/s to try and peek at the sexes but he said we only about a 30% chance of being able to correctly tell both of them, so we decided to wait. I'm really dying to know!!!!

Monday, December 14, 2009

Humbled By the Grace of God

So for the past week I've found myself in ever constant complaint. My head hurts, my hip hurts, my back hurts, my boobs hurt, I can't sleep. On and On and On!! But this morning after waking up and complaining that I was tired of not sleeping more than two hours something hit me. I got up without saying another word, went and took my shower and prayed. I all of the sudden remembered how desperately I've prayed for a child for the past two years. I remembered how jealous I was of everyone around me who got pregnant so easily. I remembered how desperately I wanted to feel those pregnancy pains. I remembered all the tears I cried with each passing month. I remembered how I use to blame God for not blessing me with a child. And then I remembered all those women out there, many of them friends, who were still in those shoes and who still longed to be pregnant. And I cried. I have felt so amazingly blessed throughout this pregnancy so far but I think its easy to lose sight and take what you've been through for granted. I from this day forward will never take an easy day of pregnancy for granted. I will love, endure and cherish every ache or pain. I have begged, cried, longed and prayed to be here and have by the grace of God been given this magical opportunity and I will cherish it through to the end!

To all of those women out there who are still longing for that miracle, I pray for you. I pray that you will remember the reason for this magical season. I pray that you will see God's grace through your pain, tears and anguish. I pray that instead of feeling sorrow because another holiday has come and gone without a child that you will feel blessed by what amazing gifts from God you already have. And I pray that in God's time, he will bless you with your own miracle. I went back and read a poem someone forwarded me right before I got pregnant the first time. I wanted to share it with you, because it carried me through for the last 6 months of my infertility.


I Give This Up To You

Lord, help me to know that You are enough. Take my eyes off of myself. Take my eyes off of the child I desire. Help me to delight myself in You. Mold the desires of my heart to be in line with Your will. I don't want to need to be a mother more than I need to be your humble, obedient child. I don't want wanting to have a baby be a stumbling block between You and me anymore.

Lord, I want to give this desire, this drive, this ache up to You. Help me not to snatch it back as I so often do with the burdens I place in Your hands. Help me to be truly content with Your will and Your timing. Lord, You know that I still desire a baby- someone to mold, teach, train, shape, guide, and help to grow in You. But until the day You give me that joyous blessing, help me to grow in You. Let me reach out to those around me. Let me witness and minister to the children You place in my path.

Lord, if adoption is the path You would have us take, prepare our hearts, and prepare the child who will share our home. If adoption is not Your will for our lives, keep me from pushing ahead of Your plan. Help me to stay submitted to my husband's will, and to Your will. If we are headed in the wrong direction, change our hearts.

Thank You for lifting my burden. Help me to keep You first! Let me seek Your face daily, and let me know that You are enough!




Infertility has brought me closer to God than almost anything I've experienced in my life. I pray now that God has blessed me with these children that I can mold, shape and guide them to grow in God. I hope that this poem will help those of you struggling with infertility grow in God and give your burdens to him. And I hope all of your who have struggled with infertility and now have children remember those who still struggle to be where we are and lift them up that they may one day be able to experience such an amazing gift from God.

Thursday, December 10, 2009

Belly Pics - 14 Weeks 5 Days


So now I see why some people tell me I'm gonna be huge. But I'm not worried about it, that's just part of baking two babies. I wish I could post my side by side pics on here but I can't figure out how to do it, so if anyone can help please let me know!

What's In A Name?

So Dalyn and I have been asked I guess a million times if we have any names picked out for the kiddos. Well, in case your wondering, we don't. But we did. Confused yet? So of course as long as we've been trying to get pregnant we had come up with some baby names we liked. But something about all those changed when we found out we were having twins. Now something tells me in the end we'll probably go back to those names but for now we've been scrounging through baby name books to see if something just jumps at us. Have any of you looked through baby name books? I mean I have to question, where do they honestly come up with some of these names?!?!! If I can't pronounce it nary am I going to give it to my child to be stricken with for the rest of his/her life. So with all the confusion we've decided to wait until we know what they are to seriously start nailing down names but it got me to thinking, how does everyone else have such an easy time with their babies names. How did you come up with your child, children or child-to-be's name? I am interested to know peoples stories.

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

Pregnancy - Week 14

So it depends of what book you read or who you ask but this week I officially consider myself into my second trimester. My doctor say the first trimester ends at week 13. What an amazing feeling it is to know that God has helped us make it this far and that I've been amazingly blessed with perfect pregnancy so far. Its so hard to believe that I have two miracles growing away inside of me but as hard as it is to believe, I already love them more than life itself.

What's happening with the babies this week?
Your baby's skin is very thin, and his/her blood vessels can actually be seen through the skin. Your baby's ears are continuing to develop externally and continue to look more like normal ears. Your baby's eyes are continuing to move towards the nose from the sides of his/her head. The baby's bones are beginning to ossify, which means that if an x-ray was taken the skeleton would be visable. Babies at this age have also been caught sucking their thumbs on ultrasound pictures.

How far along: 14 weeks 3 days

Total weight gain/loss: 8 lbs. I haven't weighted myself this week so I'm gonna stick with that.

Maternity clothes: Pretty much in maternity at this point, except I can still wear some of my regular tops.

Stretch marks: None yet.

Sleeping: This past week hasn't been the best week for sleep, I've started having a hard time getting to sleep or getting back to sleep when I wake up.

Best moment last week:Finding out I'm going to be pregnant with a very special friend!!!

Symptoms: I have started to get dizzy from time to time but other than that I feel pretty good.

Food cravings: I crave food in general, but I still love my OJ in the morning and also I'm in love with chocolate milk right now.

Food aversions: Just bacon

Gender: We go New Year's EVE to find out the sexes. I still think boy/girl and Dalyn still thinks girls. We've had a lot more people tell us boys over the past week or so. I put up a poll today so be sure to vote!

I miss: nothing really. I don't know that I could be more happier with life!!

What I am looking forward to: I'm so excited about finding out the sexes I could care less if we just skipped right on by Christmas. So I would have to say I'm more looking forward to what they are!!

Body Changes: I don't feel like I've had a lot of changes this week. Although I will say when I looked back at the pics from Thanksgiving I feel like I just look different, pregnancy glow maybe?!? I think my belly took a growth spurt this week, I'll try to remember to post some belly pics soon.

Friday, December 4, 2009

Doctor's Appointment

Appointment 4 - December 2, 2009 - 13 weeks 4 days

I'm not really going to do the typical doctor's appt post because well this was just a routine visit and they didn't even do an ultrasound. Dalyn couldn't get off work so I went to this one solo. I got to listen to the babies heartbeats and it was amazing to hear them pounding away. Although we ordered a doppler a few weeks ago, so we've been listening to them at home anyways. My blood pressure was still amazingly low, 98/57, no wonder I feel like I can't move at times. The doctor said it was normal and should start rising slower here soon. I've gained 8 lbs so far! He seemed pretty content with that so I guess I am too. He also went over about a million different things on how things would progress over the next months. He said I'd most likely be put on some kind of bed rest but he couldn't say for sure. He also said they would recommend me stop working around 30 weeks or at least cut way back. All my blood work from last appt came back normal. I'm O neg, which means I'll be getting a Rhogam shot, which I already knew! But the most exciting thing about our appointment is that next time we'll be finding out what we're having. He said they would do about an hour scan over both babies!! One full hour we get to watch them!!! So our next appt is . . . . . December 31st!!! Yes, New Year's EVE! I thought that was super fun, although I doubt I'll make it to see the ball drop this year. In a week or so I'm going to put up a poll so people can vote on what these little munchkins' are, I can't wait to see what people think.

Monday, November 30, 2009

Pregnancy - Week 13



What's happening with the babies this week?
Your baby is continuing to grow and mature at this point. Your baby's arms are going to begin to lengthen and be more proportioned to the rest of the body. The liver is beginning to produce bile, while the spleen is beginning to produce red blood cells. The development of your baby's brain enables him/her to use facial muscles to grimace, frown and squint. He/she may be sucking his/her thumb. Because you have begun the second trimester and most of the critical development has been completed the chance of miscarriage decreases.

How far along: 13 weeks 5 days

Total weight gain/loss: 8 lbs.

Maternity clothes: Pretty much in maternity at this point, except I can still wear some of my regular tops. I have one pair of jeans that are my absolute favorite, they are so comfy!

Stretch marks: None yet. And I'm rubbing lotion on like a mad woman! I figure I'm not going to avoid them but maybe I can scare some away.

Sleeping: I find I'm starting to sleep a little more peacefully at night. I still get up like twice a night to pee but I feel like I fall asleep easier and stay asleep longer.

Best moment last week:Spending time with our family and friends for Thanksgiving. It was wonderful to have so much to feel thankful for this year.

Symptoms: Moodiness!! I can go from happy and joyful to mad or crying in about the blink of an eye and over the stupidest stuff. Still pretty tired all the time. I'm also still having small waves of nausea but nothing terrible.

Food cravings: I crave food in general, but I still love my OJ in the morning and also I'm in love with chocolate milk right now.

Food aversions: Just bacon

Gender: We go New Year's EVE to find our the sexes. I still think boy/girl and Dalyn still thinks girls. We've had a lot more people tell us boys over the past week or so.

I miss: nothing really. I don't know that I could be more happier with life!!

What I am looking forward to: I'm so excited about finding out the sexes I could care less if we just skipped right on by Christmas. So I would have to say I'm more looking forward to what they are!!

Body Changes: My body is changing almost daily it seems like. I had lots of mixed reactions from family/friends. Some thought I looked smaller, some bigger but everyone was excited to see the belly! The doctor also told me yesterday that apparently my uterus has moved and is sitting right over my pelvic bone which is causing me a great deal of discomfort. He said its not unusual to get use to it! I'm also having what he called round ligament pain and yes its as uncomfortable as it sounds. He said in a single pregnancy most women wouldn't experience this until later but with two it happens a lot earlier.

Giving Thanks

So I know I'm a little late but I scarified blogging time for time with family and friends this week, I'm sure y'all understand! Dalyn and I left here Tuesday night headed home for 5 wonderful days!! Traffic was terrible and when we finally arrived I was immediately thankful for a safe trip, we seen so many accidents on the way home. Wednesday morning I got to sleep late, again something I was thankful for. Then I got my hair done, it needed it, so I was thankful for finally not looking like a bag lady. Wednesday afternoon we went a looked at the shower site and I was thankful for the amazing women in my life who want to shower these babies with love, I was thankful for my wonderful husband who gave me these babies, for God who is taking amazing care of me and these babies and lastly for these babies, who made my season even more thankful this year!! We spent the next few days with family and friends celebrating all that we had to be thankful for. We were so thankful to have amazing people surrounding us, amazing babies on the way, a roof over our heads, food on our tables and love in our hearts. We realize so many people don't have these things to be thankful for and we try our best to never take it for granted.

We have a family tradition, every year around this time we go to the Grove Park in Asheville, NC with my in-laws and eat their amazing prime rib buffet! Saturday we did that a viewed the gingerbread houses! If you've never been to the Grove Park I highly recommend it, esp at Christmas because it is beautiful. Dalyn and I have our picture taken in front of the same tree every year, only this year they were a little different. Here are the pictures, my hubby is a joker and so he decided to compare bellies! Although in the picture this dress does a pretty good job hiding mine.

Sunday, November 22, 2009

Pregnancy - Week 12

What's happening with the babies this week?
Up until this point, our babies head has been the largest part of his/her body but that's beginning to change. Unique fingerprints are now located on the tips of our babies fingers. The kidney and urinary tract are completely functional which allows the amniotic fluid he/she has been swallowing to be excreted. Covering our babies skin is a fine soft hair call lanugo.

How far along: 12 weeks 3 days

Total weight gain/loss: I haven't weighed myself this week so I have no clue!

Maternity clothes: Its official I can no longer wear any of my regular pants. I can still fit into most of my regular tops some are just tighter than others.

Stretch marks: None yet. And I'm rubbing lotion on like a mad woman! I figure I'm not going to avoid them but maybe I can scare some away.

Sleeping: I have started to be uncomfortable some at night now. I notice myself tossing and turning a lot more. Still getting up about once a night to pee.

Best moment last week: Getting to see our babies moving and growing. They are so amazing to me and I love them so much already.

Symptoms: I'm exhausted this week! I thought when I hit the 12 or 13 week mark I was going to have this amazing burst of energy but it sure hasn't happened yet! I am still hungry almost 24/7. And have had a few waves of nausea this week.

Food cravings: Still on my OJ kick. And chocolate milk!! Yum, I'm in love with choc milk right now. (I find it weird that I'm not really craving foods but drinks)

Food aversions: Pretty much just bacon now

Gender: Couple more months, I'm guessing boy and girl, Dalyn says girls. We had our first person tell us boys this week though which was neat!

I miss: nothing what so ever. I don't know that I could be more happier with life!! With Thanksgiving coming up I told Dalyn this morning that I couldn't have imagined having such an amazing blessing to be thankful for. God certainly does work in amazing ways!

What I am looking forward to: Thanksgiving Break!!! YAH for 5 days of rest, spending time with family & friends and of course FOOD!!! I'm also looking forward to my doctors appt when we get back.

Body Changes: I feel like my belly just grew out of no where overnight!! I still have the road map which is now moving down my arms! I've also moved up a bra size this week.

Friday, November 20, 2009

Spreading The Baby News

So I've been wanting to tell everyone how we told our families we were pregnant and their first reactions but I hadn't been able to get the video to upload until now and I fill figured it out this morning. So we didn't get to record every one's reaction but we did get our in-laws on video. We first found our we were pregnant on like September 23. I had started to get sick and one morning as we were leaving the house Dalyn said you better just test so you will know what you can take. So I marched off to the bathroom knowing it was way to early to test and thinking there was no way it would be positive. Well like not even a minute after I peed on the stick it read pregnant. I was shocked, I was testing like 5 days early!! I think we were both in total shock, we didn't say anything on the way to work. The next few days I spent in bed sick with a upper respiratory infection and so we didn't even get to celebrate until days later. But we had decided we would wait until at least after our first u/s to tell anyone!! Well Ashley being the best friend knew we had done IUI and that I should be testing anytime. So after she had asked for days I decided to tell her. I told her that I had finally picked out what my Halloween costume was gonna be, an oven, and she knew immediately! We told our other good friends Casey and Jonathan a couple of days later when they called to check up on me! We had decided that would be it though until after the u/s and somehow we managed to keep it secret.

So when our first u/s rolled around on Sept. 16, we had debated for weeks how we were going to tell our families. We knew we wanted to go home to tell them in person because we wanted to see their reactions. So that Friday we packed it up and drove 7 hours to break the news of not only the pregnancy but twins!! The first people we told were Dalyn's parents. We met them out for dinner and we set up the scenario. We had told them we had stopped in Raleigh and bought a new camera. So the plan was when we got home I would sit down and start playing with the camera, after a few minutes I would ask Dalyn to run get the manual out in the car. While he was out there we had devised a plan that he would tie a pregnancy test around Max, his parents dog. We had no idea how it would go but it went perfectly!! So here's the video of when they found our we were pregnant. Excuse the poor video skills! Oh and excuse Dalyn's mom's robe.



Dalyn's mom calls Max the gift that keeps on giving and it certainly played perfectly into our plan!

After that video stopped rolling of course they started asking questions, so we told them we had made a pregnancy announcement to send out and we wanted to see what they though about it. It was a card and on the front it had a picture of mine and dalyn's feet and our dogs paws. It said "Our 4 foot, 12 paw family is. . . " and on the inside was a picture of the ultrasound and said "Growing by 4 feet!" So here's the video for it!



After we told them I was pretty much ready for bed, after the long trip and all the excitement so we headed to bed with plans to tell everyone else Saturday.

Saturday morning we woke up and headed to walmart to make copies of the u/s pics. We got two frames to frame them for my dad and grandmother. We ran to see Dalyn's grandmother first, we handed her an u/s pic and told her those were her new grand babies. I think she was in such shock, she didn't really say much while we were there but call later extremely excited. Next was my grandmother, we had wrapped the frame for her and I told her we had brought her an early birthday gift to open it. When she pulled the picture frame out she said "oh you got me a picture," bless her she had no clue. So I said, "do you know what it is" and of course she said no. So when we told her she said "TWO!" She was excited but I think she didn't know how to respond to twins either. Lastly, we told my dad. We did the same thing as we did for my grandmother. I had wrapped it up and taken it in and he said what's this for. I told him a present for making it through having his mouth wired shut. When he pulled the picture out I could tell he had no idea what it was either. So I said "do you know what it is" his response was "a picture of an owl!!!" everyone couldn't help but laugh so I said no its an ultrasound picture. And he said "a recent one?" So then his girlfriend was like is there two? And he finally figured it all out. He started crying and it was just the sweetest thing ever! He's over the moon about these babies and because of the owl comment he now calls them, "Hoot" and "Screech" nicknames I'm not crazy about but whatever. We ended the weekend by having dinner with our best friends and heading out the next morning. It was a wonderful weekend and I couldn't have imagined better reactions from anyone!

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Much anticipated belly pics. . .


Notice the maternity pants! Out of no where this week I can't wear any of my regular pants, so it looks like I'll be in maternity from here on out. And you know what, I'm perfectly fine with that!! I think I must have been breathing in when he took this one but my belly looks caved in but its not really like that! Hopefully I'll get better about taking them and keep uploading more!

Also, totally un-pregnancy related, I'm trying to get the videos of when we told our parents uploaded but can't seem to get it to work. Can anyone give me any pointers?

Monday, November 16, 2009

Pregnancy - Week 11

What's happening with the babies this week?
This week our babies will begin to take on a more normal appearance as the eyes move closer together and the ears move closer to their final position. Their intestines have grown so fast that they actually extend into the umbilical cord, but they will begin to move back into the abdomen. Their kidneys can now secrete urine, and their nervous systems are continuing to mature. Our babies have developed more complicated reflexes such as sucking.

How far along: 11 weeks 3 days

Total weight gain/loss: 122lbs - up 7 lbs so far. I have a feeling the way my clothes are fitting its gonna start going up pretty fast from there.

Maternity clothes: I'm discovering more and more of my pants are fitting at this point and the belly band would work if I could get them half way zipped, but some I can't even get to that point. I would say by next week or the next I'll almost exclusively be in maternity clothes. I think at this point my regular clothes are just going to become to uncomfortable.

Stretch marks: None yet. And I'm rubbing lotion on like a mad woman! I figure I'm not going to avoid them but maybe I can scare some away.

Sleeping: Still being woke up at night by my bladder, dreams or my tummy! I'm only getting up to pee about once a night now but am just waking up occasionally for no real reason. I'm also having some pretty crazy, imaginative dreams!!

Best moment last week: Getting to see our babies moving and growing. They are so amazing to me and I love them so much already.

Symptoms: A good majority of my symptoms have pretty much gone away. Last week after they drew 8 vials of blood and after going all weekend, I'm exhausted this week! I am still hungry almost 24/7, sometimes so much it almost annoys me!!

Food cravings: I crave food in general, but I'm really loving OJ and Naked smoothies this week. I also don't I've discussed with you guys my love for Fruity Cheerios right now. I normally eat like two bowls a day!! Dalyn thinks its so funny.

Food aversions: Bacon and Fast Food, I added Mexican to my aversions this week.

Gender: Couple more months, I'm guessing boy and girl, Dalyn says girls.

I miss: nothing really. I don't know that I could be more happier with life!!

What I am looking forward to: Thanksgiving Break!!! YAH for 5 days of rest, spending time with family & friends and of course FOOD!!!

Body Changes: I feel like my belly just grew out of no where overnight!! I still have the road map which is now moving down my arms! Other than that I haven't had a lot of other changes.

Stayed tuned, I've set a reminder for myself to take a picture of the baby belly tonight.

Friday, November 13, 2009

Differences with twins

So of course I knew things would be different with twins but I'm slowly realizing just how different things are. I thought I'd just list a few of our most recent examples below.

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The one thing I didn't expect is for This:











To become This:








So that leaves us with where we are today! Frustrated, miserable and stuck in the middle of the car buying fiasco!! I am to the point where I would just buy a car to be done with this whole process. I love a bargain! but car salesmen just really annoy me and I refuse to settle for less than what I feel like is a deal. I mean let's face it, do we ever really get a "deal" on new cars. We've been to every car lot with what feels like 100 mi radius just to be faced with the same things over and over. So tomorrow we're going to Carmax and one other Chevrolet dealership and for the life of me, if we don't come home and be done with this car buying ordeal tomorrow, I'm going to buy a roof rack and strap the little twinies in on top!! (just kidding don't call dss). So wish us luck, but mostly I think the hubby needs it :-)

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Doctor's Appointment

Appointment 3 - November 11, 2009 - 10 weeks 4 days

How we were feeling?
We were very excited to get to see our little miracles again this week!! Two weeks seems like forever. I told Dalyn we needed to rent a U/S machine for our house so I could see them anytime.

My weight?
Well this is the interesting part. So I've steadily kept my weight on the scales here at the office. Pre-pregnancy I was 115 or so. At my second appt I was 120. So yesterday I weighed myself so I would be prepared and I weighed 124. Well, today when I stepped on the scale it said 117. So who knows, is there a scale in the world that measures weight correctly???!!!???

The ultrasound?
We went in for our complete work-up today and let's just say I thought that included an ultrasound. I was so excited for it!! So we go through everything, dr pokes and prods and carries on with me, answers our questions and then says we done to stop by and have my b/w done on the way out. So I'm completely disappointed at this point, so my hormones must kick in and I tell him I want an ultrasound today. After much convincing he agrees and we head off to wait on the u/s room to be ready. The babies were all over the place today, kicking, waving, flipping. It was the most amazing thing ever!! Baby A was moving but was fairly calm during the whole thing but Baby B was a whole different story. When she scanned over to B, it immediately flipped over facing us and started waving! It was just unbelievable to see them moving around. She said within the next few weeks I should be able to feel them, esp since there are two.

The Babies Stats?
Baby A - Measured 10 wks 6 days
Heart rate 176

Baby B - Measure 11 wks 1 day (yes Baby B is an over-achiever, sounds like its daddy!!)
Heart rate 180

My guess is that A is a boy and B is a girl!! Dalyn still says two girls!!

Next Visit:
I'm not sure why exactly but they are going to see me back in 3 more weeks. Next appointment date is December 2.

Also, a side note about today's visit. . . do they really see a need is taking 8 vials of my blood, when I already feel like walking to the car might do me in for the day!! I was feeling good this morning like I had some energy and then she drained 8 vials and I lost it for the whole day. Oh well, I guess its one small sacrifice. She said I'd probably only have to have it drawn like 2 more times.

Of course, a couple of pics from today. . . .
Both babies together

Baby A

Baby B saying "HI" to everyone!!

Sunday, November 8, 2009

Pregnancy - Week 10

What's happening with the babies this week?
Our babies have now completed the most critical portion of their development. This is the beginning of the so-called fetal period, a time when the tissues and organs in their body rapidly grow and mature. They are swallowing fluid and kicking up a storm. Vital organs — including kidneys, intestines, brain, and liver (now making red blood cells in place of the disappearing yolk sac) — are in place and starting to function, though they'll continue to develop throughout your pregnancy. If you could peek inside you would see the babies have tiny nails forming on fingers and toes (no more webbing) and peach-fuzz hair beginning to grow on tender skin. Our babies limbs can bend now. Their hands are flexed at the wrist and meet over their hearts, and their feet may be long enough to meet in front of their bodies. From crown to rump, they are about 1 1/4 inches long. In the coming weeks, they will again double in size — to nearly 3 inches.
(BabyCenter.com)

How far along: 10 weeks 2 days

Total weight gain/loss: Haven't weighed myself recently but will update when we got back to the doctor on Wednesday.

Maternity clothes: I'm finding myself at an interested in between right now. My regular clothes are just a little to tight but my maternity pants still don't fit just quite right. Casey sent me a belly band and I'm using it with my regular clothes and I've also found dresses with leggings are super comfy so I'm sporting lots of those too! I've been gifted so many maternity clothes at this point I don't know how much more I'll have to buy.

Stretch marks: None yet. And I'm rubbing lotion on like a mad woman! I figure I'm not going to avoid them but maybe I can scare some away.

Sleeping: Still being woke up at night by my bladder, dreams or my tummy! I'm now getting up pretty much twice a night.

Best moment last week: My daddy sent me a box of maternity clothes with the sweetest card. I must say he did an excellent job picking them out (although I think some kudos go to Pam, his g/f).

Symptoms: I haven't had a ton more morning sickness, thank goodness. I'm starting to feel like I have a little more energy during the day but certainly am still worn out by about 5pm. I've had a bout with constipation which the doctor says is normal. (TMI, I know but I want to remember everything). I also have a constant runny nose. I've also started having some abdominal cramping which the doctor said was normal and most likely my uterus growing!

Food cravings: I crave food in general, I just want to eat all the time.

Food aversions: Bacon and Fast Food, I added Mexican to my aversions this week.

Gender: Couple more months, I'm guessing boy and girl, Dalyn says girls.

I miss: my mom :-( This week it really hit me that I'm going through this without the most important woman in the world. Don't get me wrong I have plenty of amazing supportive women in my life, including my fabulous mother-in-law. But I certainly wish my mom was here to go through this with me.

What I am looking forward to: Our appt on Wednesday. I can't wait to see how the babies are growing!!

Body Changes: I decided to add this one because my body is certainly changing overnight it seems. I def have a baby belly. Dalyn says some days I look more pregnant than others. Everyone says I'm gonna be all belly but my hips seem to be saying otherwise. This week I discovered my torso looks like a road map! Blue veins going everywhere!!! I think it happened during the course of a day and its very interesting.

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

HI HO HI HO, TO THE RD I GO

So somewhere along the way, along with my Dr, we decided that it was a grand idea for me to go see a Registered Dietitian (RD). Now keep in mind, in case y'all didn't know, I have a minor in Nutrition, yes minor like from an accredited college. I can't ever remember going over a lot about pregnancy during my time in class so I decided I'd seek a little extra advice. So yesterday was the day and well I knew she was going to ask what I'd had to eat the day before. Let me give you a quick recap (no judging), 3 bowls of cereal, pop tart, bowl of soup, about 10 peanut butter crackers, 3 slices of pizza, 3 cucumbers, and an apple with peanut butter. Okay so I'm not proud but you know babies gotta eat, and let me tell you they sure can take it down!! So when I initially sit down and she asks me the dreaded question, my first instinct is. . . . LIE!!! But no I told her the truth because I figured what am I gonna get out of it if I tell her only the healthy stuff. Then as we get more and more into the secession, I realize she really has not a lot more clue about healthy pregnancy eating than I do. She referred me to the Food Guide Pyramid Website, duh, I could have gotten there by myself. She gave me one semi-informational handout that referred to single pregnancies but the only thing it said about twin pregnancies is that I should gain 35-45 lbs (knew that already to). She recommended that I take lunch meat for lunch, which the American Pregnancy Assoc clearly says to avoid because of listeria concerns. I think I might have educated her about some of the dos and donts of pregnancy eating. Oh well, I tried at least! (Jes O. I'll wait on your comment here)

I will say the one ah ha moment that I had yesterday was when she weighed me. Now pre-pregnancy I was 114-115. At my first OB appt at 6 1/2 weeks I weighted 115.4, at my second appt I weighed 120.0. Now after I was weighed (at the OB) I proudly marched back into the waiting room to announce to the hubby that I had only gained 2.4 lbs. So all along I've been so proud of that, almost through the 1st trimester and at a good point with weight gain. It wasn't until yesterday when she weighed me (119lbs) that I realized my math had been terribly wrong! Yes, once again I do have a degree in accounting from an accredited college. So if you read the blog post below and question how from 115.4 to 120.0 I only gained 2.4 lbs, keep guessing, its only math that makes sense in my head!!

Sunday, November 1, 2009

Pregnancy - Week 9

What's happening with the babies this week?
Our babies are nearly an inch long and weighs just a fraction of an ounce. They are starting to look more and more human. Their essential body parts are accounted for, though they'll go through plenty of fine-tuning in the coming months. Other changes abound: our babies heart finishes dividing into four chambers, and the valves start to form — as do her tiny teeth (which daddy is excited about). The embryonic "tail" is completely gone. Our babies organs, muscles, and nerves are kicking into gear. The external sex organs are there but won't be distinguishable as male or female for another few weeks. Their eyes are fully formed, but are fused shut and won't open until 27 weeks. They have tiny earlobes, and her mouth, nose, and nostrils are more distinct. The placenta is developed enough now to take over most of the critical job of producing hormones. Now that our babies basic physiology is in place, they are poised for rapid weight gain. (BabyCenter.com)

How far along: 9weeks 1day

Total weight gain/loss: As of Wednesday I had gained 2.4lbs.

Maternity clothes: I've bought two pairs of pants so far. I can still fit into a couple pair of my old pants. I can still wear most of my tops but have bought a few that are a little bigger to hide by bump at work. My dear friend, Casey sent me a huge box of clothes also, so I'm hoping I won't have to buy tons and tons of stuff.

Stretch marks: None yet

Sleeping: egh ok, if I'm not interrupted by going to the bathroom several times a night, its retarded dreams, or hunger pains. I'm averaging a snack (normally a bowl of cereal) about 1/2 way through the night

Best moment last week: Seeing out two little amazing babies growing, moving and perfectly healthy.

Symptoms: I had my first encounter with morning sickness last week. Thursday was not a good day at all. I've learned very quickly Zofran is my friend :-) My other main complaint is exhaustion. Body wise I feel great, other than the occasional hip pain I'm experiencing. I've been lucky so far in the symptom category.

Food cravings: Cucumbers (weird I know)

Food aversions: Bacon and Fast Food

Gender: Couple more months, I'm guessing boy and girl, Dalyn says girls.

I miss: having energy

What I am looking forward to: Our next appt on Nov 11. I love seeing the little babies and how they are growing and developing.

Friday, October 30, 2009

Doctor's Appointments

I have been keeping a pregnancy journal but I want to make sure I recap all of my doctor's visits on here to. So I'm gonna recap our first two in the first post.

Appointment 1 - October 14, 2009 - 6 weeks 4 days
For those of you who don't know, its not really usual practice to have your first OB appt so early but because we got pregnant through IUI and because of our previous pregnancy outcome, they wanted to do an early OB appointment. Fine by me, put my nerves at ease early.

How we were feeling?
We had a flurry of emotions. Excited, Scared, Nervous, Anxious, you name we had it all. Of course our disappointment came during our first doctor's appointment last time and we were so scared for the same results. However, its strange but when we got there I wasn't really scared or nervous.

My weight?
115.4

The ultrasound?
Of course once I dis-robed from the waist down and laid down on the table my heart started pounding. I knew that what was to come in the next few moments could either be a miracle or heartache. First thing she looked at was my ovaries (of course I'm thinking move on, I just wanna know if they did their job). I had been over-stimulated and my ovaries were still extremely large. So when she finally scanned over my uterus, the first thing I could see was two sacks and all I could say was "is there two?" She said well actually I see three sacks but only two babies. Almost immediately Dalyn and I could point out their tiny little heartbeats. Our ultrasound tech was amazing (I had seen her twice before during IUI, so she knew our situation). She went through everything and let us just look and look and awe and ooohh. We even got to hear their tiny little heartbeats which was so amazing and re-assuring. She also took a whole photo album full of pictures for us. We were also given out due date of June 5.

The Babies Stats?
Baby A - Measured 6 wks 3 days
Heart rate 117

Baby B - Measure 6 wks 4 days
Heart rate 117

Next Visit:
The doctor decided since there was one more sack in there she wanted us to return in two weeks just to confirm there wasn't actually three babies instead of two. Next appt date October 28.



Appointment 2 - October 28, 2009 - 8 weeks 4 days
How we were feeling?
Our nerves were a little more at ease with this appointment. Of course I still think when you've been through what we've been through you always have a little hesitation. We were very excited to get to see our little babies again and see how they were growing and progressing.

My weight?
120.0 - I've gained 2.4 lbs to date

The ultrasound?
We were more excited than anything about the ultrasound. I was pretty convinced that we were only going to have two babies and they were going to be beautiful, growing and healthy. The ultrasound did not let me down. We saw two amazing little babies and this time they actually looked like babies. Baby B let us see its little profile perfectly. They were both moving around and it was amazing to see them wiggling. It seems like they've grown by leaps and bounds in just two weeks even though they've haven't grown that much. Of course we got to hear their heartbeats again which just blows me away. I know why people by ultrasound machines for their homes now, I would love to see these little babies every time I got the chance.

The Babies Stats?
Baby A - Measured 8 wks 4 days
Heart rate 180

Baby B - Measure 8 wks 5 days
Heart rate 184

Both babies have actually grown by a full day from the last measurement.

Next Visit:
Since both of these last two appts have just been early OB ultrasounds they are going to see me back in 2 more weeks for a full OB work-up. Next appt date Nov. 11. In the meantime the doctor also wanted me to go see a nutritionist. I'm hoping she will help me eat a more balanced diet and give me a few tips and secrets.

I also wanted to leave you with a few u/s pics for the last appointment.

This is Baby A. Its not very photogenic but its also upside down.

This is Baby B. And you can kind of see its tiny little profile.

Thursday, October 29, 2009

My recent absence. . .

So I know all you wonderful blog followers are wondering what's happened to me. I'm still around and busy as ever. So I must finally admit the main reason I haven't been blogging. I'm the worst at keeping big secrets. I do good at keeping other people's secrets but terrible at keeping my own. So I find the less I say the easier it is. Well obviously, with blogging its not easy to say less so I just haven't been blogging but now is time for me to come back and keep everyone updated on the Webb's. And so I know your saying, "What's the big secret?" After much anticipation here it is . . . . . . . . . . . .





Yes, we are pregnant but I guess that's not the biggest news of all!!!




Yep, you guessed it!! TWINS!!!!

We have been blessed with two amazing little miracles. Words cannot even describe the feelings we've had over the past few weeks. We waited for a while to tell anyone because of our emotional roller-coaster last time. This was our first ultrasound at 6 wks 4 days. We've had one other one since then, yesterday, which was 8 wks 4 days. Both babies are growing perfectly and we've got to see and hear their heartbeats twice now. Its hard to describe how absolutely blessed we feel and how much love we already feel for these two babies. It gets me all teary eyed every time I think about how much love I have for them already. So that's all for now, stay tuned I'm gonna get a post up on both appts and how I'm feeling at 9 wks. I also want to get a post up of how we told all our families!! As always, please continue to pray for us and these two tiny little miracles!

Sunday, October 4, 2009

Introduce Yourself

So, I realize I know a lot of my blog followers, but recently I've had more and more anonymous comments. Last night Dalyn and I were talking and I was telling him I wonder where people that read my blog come from. His comment, "why don't you ask." So here we go, if you read my blog I'd like to know you. I'd like to know where you live, what lead you to my blog and what comments you have about my blog. So no matter how much or how little you read my blog please please leave me a comment, I'm really interested to hear from everyone. Also, if you've had a question you've been wanting to ask now is the time to go for it too. For those of you that I know, show a girl some love too ;-)!! Can't wait to hear the responses.

Ready, Set, Go. . . .

Thursday, October 1, 2009

Hello, Blog

Yes, you haven't missed anything, I've been extremely MIA recently; averaging like 3 posts a month I think. I still get on every night and tell myself to write but generally nothing comes out. Me, quite?!? HA!! Dalyn, might have different opinion on that. I started this blog mainly for friends and family to keep up with where we had been and where we were going. And a lot of what was going on was with infertility. Since our miscarriage we had decided to keep things more private and that really cute down on what I have to say. While I'm still not ready to start sharing again, I'm definitely getting there. It's amazing at what an outlet with blog has been for me. It has provided me with so much love and support from people I never would've imagine cared. So for those of you so patiently waiting a infertility update, hang on, I have a feeling that I may be back to that soon. On another note, we have an appointment with an RE on Monday. He specifically only does IVF. We've had this appointment since we left Knoxville, yes it took 4 mos to get in, and I just don't know how convinced I am that I want to go. So we'll see what happens, I have to cancel by tomorrow if not.

In other notes. . . .

We had Dalyn's mom and dad visit a month or so back. It was amazing having them here. I wish they would buy the house next door and just move down here. We also had Ashley, Tony and Reeslyn come visit a few weeks later. As always we had a blast and its so amazing to see Reeslyn and how much she is changing and growing. While they were here we celebrated both Tony & Ashley's b-day, Sept 4 & 15 respectively. So happy late b-day shout out!! Dalyn's mom also celebrated her birthday on the 17th.

I haven't blogged about my dad lately, but he could definitely use all the prayers he could get coming his way. He had his jaw broke a few weeks back (long story) and has since went through a pretty major surgery which has his jaw wired shut and a plate along his jaw. I know its killing him to have to eat soup so pray that God will give him to finish seeing things out for the next few weeks. And pray that God will also show him the light for the Godly life that he should be living.

Lastly, work is going great for both Dalyn and I. We are so busy sometimes it seems like that's all we do. But we both love our jobs with is great. And its wonderful to only be two office doors down from each other.

Other than that things are running smoothly, stayed tuned for infertility stuff to come.

Sunday, September 20, 2009

Things Like This . . .

make me sad to be suffering from infertility. Yesterday, I seen an article on new baby things for 2010. I mean ok let's be honest once you start trying to have a baby you start noticing all the cute baby things but for those of you who are walking down the lonely road of infertility cute baby stuff just makes for increased sadness and desire to have a baby. I try to avoid baby websites but occasionally things just pop up when I least expect it and remind me that another year of cute baby patterns and colors has come and gone and still no baby. Nevertheless, I will continue to remain hopeful that this seasons patterns will not pass me by!!

Sunday, September 13, 2009

Prayers Please

So i know that normally when I ask for prayers its normally for me or Dalyn but this is an extra special prayer request. Let me give you a little background as to how I know this amazing person. Karen Taylor was my pledge mom the semester I pledged Phi Mu. She thought me what the sisterhood meant and how it could give you everything you gave to it. She was a kind, caring, self-less person, who made my transition into this amazing group of women enjoyable and memorable. To my own fault I hadn't done a very good job in keeping in touch with Karen after I graduated but she was always in my heart and I followed her life a lot through Facebook. I knew that she had found the love of her life and the man of her dreams and that she was set to be married. Yesterday, her wedding day, what was suppose to be one of the happiest most memorable days of her life turned into tragedy before it could even begin. I heard the terribly sad and tragic around 8 pm last night and have prayed almost constantly since for my dear sorority sister, Karen. I couldn't bare to re-post the news article because it was just to sad but I have posted the link below. I also posted their Knot website to give you a smal glimpse into their love story.

Please pray for Karen, pray for her family, pray for his family. Pray for healing, understanding, peace. Pray for her strength as she moves forward in this uncertain time. Pray that Karen seeks the Lord for healing and understanding.

Karen Taylor & Chris Raynor - The Knot Website.
WRAL News Story

"Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight." ~Proverbs 3:5-6

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Secrets Prevail

So I realize I have a ton of catching up to do with the blogging world. Life seems to be passing me by in a flash right now. I do have a couple of blogs I'm going to try and get in tonight, but we will see how long my eyes stay propped open. :-)

Of course I couldn't do an update without doing an infertility update. Dalyn and I have decided to keep things over the next few months private. We just feel like this will allow us the additional healing we need to move on with things. It's difficult for me not to write about things because this has become such an amazing outlet. I know though that this is the right decision for us right now. But please continue to pray as we will continue to make our way through this strange and uncertain infertility world. Maybe in the coming months I won't have to update about infertility but instead pregnancy!!!

Faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.
Hebrews 11:1

Saturday, August 29, 2009

No Worries

I am still alive. I know its been a while since my last blog and I do apologize. While we live in Knoxville, I only worked part time, so I had tons and tons of time to myself to do the things I love, including blogging. As I posted in a previous blog I decided when we moved here to accept a full time job. Apparently I had forgotten how little time I had to myself when I had a full time job. Course, it doesn't help that I've been working until like 7 or 7:30 every night this week. I have tons of stuff I've been wanting to blog about and it just keep building up and building up. Hopefully, things at work will slow down in the next week or so.

In other news, I reluctantly welcomed AF today, for the first time in 16 weeks. It made me really sad this morning to realize that I would've been 16 weeks today and almost 1/2 way through a pregnancy. I'm trying not to focus on it. Dalyn and I had originally decided that we wouldn't do IUI this month. Well, that was before we knew it was going to take AF so long to arrive. Needless to say we are going back and forth trying to make a decision what to do. I'm sure I will keep you guys updated as to what we're going to do.

Saturday, August 15, 2009

confessions of an infertile

So the past few days I've really been debating hard about writing the post. I knew I had it in my mind but just couldn't write it out. I just need a little inspiration for God or something to want to share it. Welp this morning I woke up and there it was. My inspiration you ask, an email on my phone saying "The Bump: Week 14." As you all know about 12 weeks ago or so Dalyn and I found out the wonderful news that we we're expecting our first child. What an unbelievable, unexplainable gift from God. But sadly just a few shorts weeks later our reality came crashing in that there was no baby growing there. Now today it's been 14 weeks since our last infertility treatment and well everyday that it gets closer to AF showing up I dread it more and more. When we first decided to have a D&C and I was so ready to move forward with more treatments. And now that the time is getting closer and closer to start, I'm getting farther and farther away from wanting to. I don't know why exactly but I think it could amount to a whole handful of reason. . . .
  1. Needles
  2. Meds
  3. Ultrasounds
  4. Failure
  5. Fear of Pregnancy Again
  6. Being constricted to this area for all but 2 weeks a month
  7. More failure.
  8. And more failure
  9. Having to resort to IVF, a final effort
  10. And more failure

just to name a few. I really don't think it's one reason in particular, I think just everything builds up and then I continue to dread it more and more. Now don't get me wrong, this doesn't change the fact that I want a child of my own more than anything else in this world. Because believe me I still do.

So what's the resolution? We haven't really decided for sure yet. I really have this strong conviction in my heart that if God wants us to have a child, he will provide it for us whether through IUI, IVF or naturally. I think that whatever means we take to get pregnant it will be in His time. So with that being said we've decided to take it month to month. This month we're going to try naturally and if it happens it was meant to be and if not we'll access where we are next month. I think it seems to be what works best for us at this place in our lives and infertility journey.

Please pray for Dalyn and I and the decisions we are having to make and face. Obviously I think neither one of us ever thought we'd be here but then again who does. Please pray that it will be God's time and that he will bless us with a the true miracle of life.

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

passing me by

Time seems to be flying by me right now. I blink and it seems like another day, another week and then another month is gone! It's so hard for me to believe that we've been back in NC for almost a month now. I seen my first week of work come and go in a flash. So far I like my job, I've realized its going to be a lot more stressful than I first realized. But it's amazing to be able to walk down the hall and see the man of your dreams face. It seems to make the day so much better and enjoyable. I've been charged with making a lot of changes at the clinic and I think its not going to increase my ratings in the office but I think its going to be a really great opportunity for me. On a funner note, I have my first "real" office and I'm really wanting to start getting settled in. I've found several really fun office things but I just can't decide on anything yet. If anyone has any suggestions, please send them on! I posted some of the stuff I found, of course it's all from etsy.

Suggestions welcome, please?!?! Artwork or anything!

Also, I know everyone is waiting for a infertility update but there really isn't much to report on this end. Still waiting on AF, I'll be on CD 26 tomorrow. My cycles have been about 32 days over the past few months so we'll keep a watch on the next few days. I'll be sure to update everyone when something does change.

Saturday, August 8, 2009

my best friend

I'm a little late but 4 years ago on Thursday I married my best friend and the love of my life.

I couldn't be more thankful for this wonderful man! I celebrate our marriage everyday.

Dalyn, I Love You to the moon and back!!!

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

Happy 27th Birthday.......

to this wonderfuly amazing man in my life!!I couldn't thank Dalyn's parent's enough for bringing him in this world. Dalyn, I hope you had a wonderful birthday and I look forward to spending many many many more with you.
I LOVE YOU TO THE MOON & BACK!

Monday, August 3, 2009

Hello, Again, Working World

So several of you have been asking what I've decided with the job front and continuing with infertility treatments. Well, here's the skippy. Friday afternoon I received an offer letter from the clinic Dalyn works at. I hadn't really interviewed for the position but had given her my resume for a previous position they had open, apparently I was so good there was no interview needed :-).

So here's a little overview of the clinic... Most of their patients include uninsured and indigent population in a surrounding radius of about 6 counties or so. They have been seeing patients on the medical side for quite some time but Dalyn is the first dentist they've ever had and is in charge of getting the dental side up and running. My official title is "Practice Manager" which I think might turn into a catch all title. I will be over all front desk staff on both the medical and dental side, so part of my position is to integrate policies and procedures on both sides. I will be responsible for insuring the front desk runs smoothly, including placing patients in fee brackets, verifying income, collecting payments, etc. Another huge part of my position is collecting charge sheets, insuring that they are coded correctly and getting them off to billing. A lot of this is going to be a pretty big learning curve but I have confidence in myself that I can learn it. All in all, I'm extremely excited to get started. I finished all my paperwork today and got settled into my new office. It's in some serious need of decor. The interior designer in me desperately wants to paint it. But I'm scouring everywhere for some great decor and artwork. So if any of you are artist or know somewhere to get great office stuff please let me know. Of course I've been shopping like crazy on my trusty etsy.com and have turned up a few great finds. I will let y'all know what I end up finding/buying.

So where does this job leave me with treatments? Well, I haven't discussed anything with them yet. My boss is Dalyn's boss and she knew that we had been pregnant. As a matter of fact she sent me a very beautiful pot of flowers saying she was thinking of me right after we had the D&C. So I'm sure she kind of knows and I have faith she is going to be very understanding. But my thoughts are, my doctor's office starts seeing patients at 7:30, well I don't have to be at work until 9. So if I can get an early appointment I should be back in plenty of time. Also, my other option is, part of my job will take me to Greenville (where my dr office is) once or twice a week. My thought is I could just let her know and take lunch to go to the dr office there and then do what I need to do for work after. Of course these are all just thoughts running through my mind and I have no idea how they truly will work when it comes down to it. I'm sure I will be keeping y'all updated on this.

Hope every one's week is off to a great start!!

Sunday, August 2, 2009

Back on the Infertility Treatment Horse

Drum roll please, the first infertility post since our loss.

So I feel like after about a 12 week break from infertility treatments I'm ready to jump back on the horse, so to speak. We're waiting until my next cycle to start treatments. We haven't quite decide what steps we're going to take from here but we're going to have to decide fairly quickly. I went back to the doctor Friday and he is in agreement that my body should be ready to start again on my next cycle. We discussed where to go from here with treatments and our future plans for treatments. Dalyn and I had talked about going through two more treatments of IUI and then moving forward with IVF. You see here is our dilemma, in Knoxville we were fortunate enough to get all of our infertility treatments for free. Since the hubby was a resident and we seen a doctor associated with the hospitals she treated residents for free. (Really nice, huh?) But it got us a little spoiled too. So our main discussion is how many times and how much money to we do and spend with IUI before we decide our money would be better spent with IVF. This is where the trying IUI two more times comes in. He was in complete agreement with our plan but did make the comment not to be set in stone. He said if we go through twice and everything looked great we just didn't get pregnant he said he wouldn't be completely opposed to trying one more round of IUI.

So, now that we are all in agreement, we will start things up after this cycle. He said to go ahead and try naturally this cycle but that he didn't want to force the issue after my body had already been through so much. I'm completely in agreement with that! So now we're just waiting on AF to show up. He said he couldn't really say when he thought that would be, he said that it would probably run about my normal cycle length but could be a little longer or shorter. I'd be on about cycle day 15 or so I guess so hopefully in another couple of weeks. The plan is to start out with a very similar cycle to the one we got pregnant on. He didn't want to do the exact cycle because he said with our ages and other factors he felt like 4 follicles (what I had the cycle we conceived) might be taking to much of a risk. So this cycle we're going with 5 mg Femara on CD 3-7 and Gonadotropin (1 amp) on CD 8-11. We will do a ultrasound on CD 11 and see where the follicles are and then go from there.

All in all, I'm very excited (never thought I'd say that) and anxious to get started. I feel like both Dalyn and I are just really ready to get pregnant and we know this is what its going to take so we're ready to get started. I just wanted to take a moment to sincerely thank everyone for their thoughts and prayers over the last few weeks. They were greatly appreciated. Please continue to pray for us in the coming months that we will easily find ourselves pregnant again.